It’s so hard to talk about what I want, as a woman and future mother, for my life.
I almost feel hesitant to share my feelings because of all the backlash that comes from the judgmental mentality that women have.
It’s a harsh generalization, I know, but it’s fairly accurate.
Let me know if a certain stereotype comes to mind when you hear the term ‘Stay at home mom’ or ‘housewife’…
What about ‘working mom’ or ‘career minded woman’.
You can’t deny it.
You can find the argument and division everyplace you look.
There is pride to be found in each life choice.
If money were not an issue and it was only about what I wanted I would be staying home with Little Man once he is here.
I’d go back for the time that is necessary to ensure that my maternity benefits went through…
But I’d be at home after that.
I’m not so sure that it is even something that can be discussed.
A far cry from when I wasn’t pregnant and just talking about how things would be.
Now that I am bonding with the little guy I’m wanting to be sure that I never feel as if I have missed out.
Thinking of someone else raising my child 9-10 hours a day.
Having someone else witness the first that I should have been there for.
Someone else kissing boo-boos.
We don’t have a plan yet.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t procrastinating.
I just keep hoping that Jake will offer the SAHM option to me.
It’s not likely to happen.
I think the best I’ll be able to do is possibly going below 100% in hours at work and coming in later or going home earlier.
And something is better than nothing.