Home Home Home

October 29, 2013

Week 16: My Avacado

Aaand sucking in/flexing my abs to make the bump disappear for fun is now redundant.
I’m pregnant.
My stomach is getting bigger.

I bought my first piece of clothing for the Bum-bum.
It’s a little sleeper with dinosaurs on the feet.

I also had my first experience being completely frustrated with stores.
What in the world is up with racks and racks of girl clothes and only having one rack within the mess of pink and purple, being for boys.
Then, the stuff isn't even that cute!
It’s completely ridiculous.

Pregnancy is bringing on a whole slew of new feelings.
Like, what’s up with needing to burp so badly that it hurts?
When was that something that happened?
I thought I was imploding.
Praise the Good Lord for peppermint drops and tums, because I thought I was dying.

I bought the first item for the nursery.
I never thought that curtains could be so exciting.
We may not have a curtain rod yet, but that doesn’t make any difference.

I think I felt the little man move.
I may have been mistaken.
It was only once while I was at work and I couldn't feel it again.

I'm currently home with a stomach bug.
It really hit me hard last night. 
Not fun.
The opposite.
So excuse the short, and abrupt, post.

October 24, 2013

Dinner and a Show

This fall I’m participating in a musical review of the composer Stephen Schwartz.
He created the music for some amazing shows and movies.
Children of Eden
Prince of Egypt
Just to name a few.
Last week I auditioned for the review with many friends.
There was a little bit of time where I thought that I wasn’t going to be able to do the show.
I was really bummed, because I adore his music.
Finally everything got figured out.
Let’s just say that I have an amazing husband.
After getting things set on Friday that I was available for the show, I auditioned on Saturday.
I had stopped prepping for the audition the week before, so that was interesting.
I also chose to sing ‘Not While I’m Around’ from Sweeny Todd….
Let me give you a little of the lyrics:
Nothings gonna harm you, not while I’m around.
Nothings gonna harm you, No sir, Not while I’m around.
Demons are prowling everywhere nowadays.
I’ll send them howling, I don’t care, I have ways.
No one’s gonna hurt you, no one’s gonna dare.
Others can desert you, not to worry, whistle I’ll be there.
Demons can charm you with a smile, for a while, but in time…
Nothing can harm you, not while I’m around.
Needless to say, I nearly started to just sob…. So I stopped after the first verse.
It was kind of abrupt.
Not my smartest idea.
I was singing, about to go into the second verse and I stopped and just took a deep breath.
Then I said, ‘Yeah, I think that’s OK. I’m done now.’
I’m sure it wasn’t appreciated, even though the director laughed and asked if I was about to cry.
Laughing, I told her, ‘Yeeeah, I should have thought about the context of the song before I chose it.’
All of us giggled about it while I sat down.
The song list and solo/duet assignments went out that night.
I’m really excited because I was given ‘For Good’ from Wicked the Musical to sing with a  friend of mine.
It’s going to be a lot of fun and really great to sing with her.
There are about 3-4 chorus numbers that may have dancing and choreography.
I’m excited.
This girl needs some cardio!
Anyway. The show is going to be toward the end of November.
I’m really excited because it’s going to be a dinner theatre cabaret show.
No sets or costumes.
Just music and a little dancing.
I’ve never participated in anything like it.
It’s going to be a lot of fun!

October 23, 2013

Bed Hog

I have three bed hogs.
Jake, Asher and Ezekiel.
They are all lucky I’m a modified sleeper.
I adapt to any situation.
A few days ago I woke up to a dog face in my armpit.
Not long before that Asher, Jake and I made a beautifully proportioned ‘H’.
Zeke likes to force me down the bed by sleeping on my pillows, all because I sometimes sleep with my hands above my head.
I think that he sits there, hoping that my hands will spontaneously give him scritch-scratches in the middle of the night.
Jake is my most beloved bed hog ever.
He does it so sneakily.
Rolling his furnace of a self over, and sleepy old me thinking that he wants to sleep all cuddly like.
It’s his master move.
His check mate.
In all reality, he just like sleeping in the middle of the bed with his head sunk between our pillows.
I end up on my side, with just enough room to not know how close to the edge of the bed I am.
It’s a joyous experience, sleeping in my house.
People might wonder why I don’t really want a co-sleep bassinette that edges up with the bed.
I can imagine it now.
Me, resting peacefully.
Baby rolled on its side close to the edge of the bassinette, with it’s cute hand curled by its chin.
Suddenly, that cute little hand stretches.
And stretches.
And stretches.
Reaching out to touch the pillow by my face.
Startled by the feeling of little fingers touching my face I jump.
Jake jerks awake at my sudden movement.
Baby is startled awake.
Asher jumps to race out from under the covers.
Zeke sighs contentedly.
His plans to make my life miserable are nearly complete.

October 22, 2013

Week 15: My Apple!

Today Little Mr. is 15 weeks along.
You saw that we found out the gender on Sunday night.
Boys, boys, boys!!!
(singular, not plural.)
My life is now all boys.
I’m severely outnumbered in the house.
I’m pretty excited about it though.
Robots, Legos, dinosaurs, trains….
Bring it on!
I’ve been feeling pretty great this past week.
I’m having a hard time finding anything appealing when it comes to food.
I’m hoping that will change soon, because I end up hungry fairly often.
Maybe going back to fruit would work.
Or morning smoothies.
Getting the basement in order so we can move things from the nursery is taking a lot longer than I first expected.
We are trying to set things up so it’s a functional space.
I guess we will see how well it works out.
I can’t believe I’m this far, already.
It has crawled by.
But it snuck up on me.
I’m going to be busy this month and next with a new show that I’m in.
More on that later.
I’m now officially in all maternity pants, with the exception of a pair of work pants that have really proved their worth.
I’m still trying to work out what my maternity style is.
It’s hard being in that weird stage where your old pants are too small, but you don’t really fit in maternity pants all that well.

We don't have a name yet.
We have a few choices, but Jake is trying to be conservative and doesn't want to make a hasty decision.
I understand, but at the same time it's killing me.
But, as many people have said... Look at our history of name choosing.
It took quite a while to choose a name for Maverick and Asher.
Why should this be any different?

Our next appointment is November 5th.
I don't think it's going to be an ultrasound, but that's ok. 
I guess I'll just have to wait until December.

October 21, 2013

Gender Reveal!!!

Jake and I went to our local 3D ultrasound clinic to find out the gender of out little love.
It was a really exciting experience.
The atmosphere was really relaxing, with nice calming music playing.

The gel the tech used wasn't cold like I expected, and it confused me so much that she just started laughing.
Right away she found our baby.

It's a BOY!!!

The tech was able to tell us right away with this little dude's 'twig and berries', as Jake called them.
Jake was so excited when she confirmed it.
He was started squeezing my hand and I just busted out laughing.

He was a little scary looking, a la Predator.
Fitting for a October ultrasound.
He sat with his legs tucked under his bottom for our video, but once that was done he stretched out and crossed his ankles.
And stomped his feet.
And sucked on his hand.
And stretched.

It was amazing, and probably the cutest thing I've ever seen.
He was so active.
It makes me a little nervous.
I may have a handful on the way.

But, I'm completely over the moon.
I'm relieved that I finally know.
Knowing another little bit about what's been growing inside of me.
Knowing just a little more about the little baby that we have completely fallen in love with.
It's a little boy...
Our little boy!

We stopped by the family members houses that we could to tell them the exciting news.
It was exciting to have everyone as excited as we were.
Hearing all our little nieces and nephews predictions and the prompted 'yay'.
It was a lot of fun!

October 17, 2013

Keep, Donate, Trash

I have started to think that getting pregnant ruined my wardrobe.
Well, if I were trying to win a hoarding competition, it ruined my chances.
Before getting pregnant I was on a mission to update and purge my closet.
I was buying ‘grown up’ clothes and loving it.
I have also found out that I was trying to preserve quite a bit of my clothing stash.
Once I realized that my pre-pregnancy jeans were not cutting it with the ‘hair tie trick’, I started packing things up.
As I pulled things out of my closet I tried to figure out if it was even worth it to keep some things.
Shirts and dresses started being thrown into a pile.
(Not jeans, I have true issue when it comes to jeans.)
After my closet was done and everything put into a bin for storage, I went into the bedroom and took a look at Jake's closet.
I’m mean like that.
It was time well spent.
Jake had some pants he hadn't worn since a year before deployment.
I won’t even talk about some of the shirts that I found.
I’m feeling pretty good about all of it.
All 4 trash bags of clothes went to Goodwill.
Now I have room to hang up the maternity wardrobe that keeps expanding due to WJ giving me things she doesn't fit in anymore.
Being a little more than a month out from your due date will do that, I guess.
I’m not complaining about free maternity clothes!

October 15, 2013

Week 14: My Lemon

Today starts week 14!
I'm officially caught up on these updates!
Check it out!
I know, I'm cool.

We're going to get our gender ultrasound this Sunday!
We are so excited.
I don't even know what to do about all the excitement.

This week was really good. I went pumpkin picking with Big Sis and her sister-in-law and all their little girls.
It was a lot of fun.

I'm feeling really good.
I'm starting to have a few issues sleeping.
I was completely comfortable being a right side sleeper... And now it's starting to be uncomfortable.
I've never been a left side sleeper, so we will see how it goes.
Maybe Jake and I will switch sides of the bed.
It'll make shorter 4:30am bathroom trips, that's for sure.

I'm officially in maternity jeans.
I only have 2 pairs that work for me right now, but the hair tie trick is just SO uncomfortable that I gave up on pretending that I wasn't gaining baby girth.
I mean, other people may not agree or see it... But it's happening.
My jeans agree.

I'm sneezing a lot.
Like 5 times, each time.
Before pregnancy I was a 2 sneeze kind of girl.
Now it's like I'm having a fit.

I'm obsessed with banana peppers.
It's been that way though out the whole pregnancy.
I'm not eating them out of the jar...
But I want them on sandwiches and salads.

Today's other beautiful thing has been heartburn and shin splints.
Really the shin splint issues is my own fault.
Running into work because I was late.
After 26 years of not running...
It was a bad idea.

The heart burn is new.
Like new, new.
I thought for a second that I was having a heart attack.
There was no reflux to go with it, so I was in pain for about 20 minutes.
I tried sleeping in the car to get it to go away.
Yeah, not really sure how I'm going to deal with that if it becomes the norm.
Any suggestions?

Now onto making a new, non-pregnant related post!

October 14, 2013

Week 13: My Peach

Week 13
We had a OB appointment this week!
It was just to hear the heartbeat and answer any questions.
The heartbeat was in the 160’s.
After that Jake and I went to Bob Evans.
We scheduled our gender reveal appointment and 3D ultrasound for the 20th!
I’ve been having dreams about what gender the baby is.
The first 2 dreams were that it was a boy.
Then the last 3 have been that it’s a girl.
I don’t have any real feeling about it yet.
Neither does Jake.
Big Sis keeps calling it a ‘she’ whenever we talk about it.
It messes me up.
Anyway, Jake went on a boys weekend for golfing and fun times.
I had book club, so it worked out.
I’m starting to get all my energy back… But my laziness gets in the way of anything getting done.
Well, I guess that’s not entirely true. I only have one basket of laundry left to do.
But putting everything away is another matter entirely.

October 11, 2013

Week 12: My Lime

12 weeks?! Already?
This is insane!

(bad picture, but I would have forgotten otherwise!)

It was the first time that I felt my energy returning. I wasn’t passing out right after work anymore.
I’m still trying to go to bed earlier to make up for my 4:30 pee sessions.
And now I’m eating something for real in the morning. 
Asher and I eat breakfast together.
He demands food at 5:45 (yay schedules) and that’s when I eat my cereal too.
Then he goes back to bed and I shower and get ready for work.
It works out perfectly.
I’m going back to curly hair.
I took a break and went with straight hair for a while because I was so tired.
Running a comb through my hair was so much easier than flipping my head upside down to put product in it.
Now I’m feeling good and I’m getting back into my mess of hair.
I may even get gutsy and get the stuff for big buns.
Watch out…
I went to maternity motherhood, just to look, and was completely turned off by the prices.
I want more than just ON can offer clothing wise, but man!
I may just try getting bigger sizes in things that I like and not get maternity.
Just so long as the shirts are longer, right?
Jake might kill me if I keep my clothing spending habits and switch to maternity.
Too bad there isn’t a maternity warehouse store, like there is for Express and things like that.
Jake is finally starting to warm up to baby gear and furniture talk.
He was focusing so much on school and has finally had time to process everything.
Plus the ultrasound helped.
We’re starting to talk about how to get everything in the nursery situated, what furniture we will need, and how we will manage.
A lot hinges on Jake’s MCAT and application process, which is hard.
MCAT testing dates goes up in the next few weeks.
We are hoping that he will prep and take the test in March.
Applications generally start in June.
Talk about a waiting game… Every life changing thing will happen this spring!
It’s getting exciting though.

Since I feel good enough, laundry needs, NEEDS, to get done.
And I need some salt and vinegar chips.

October 10, 2013

Week 11: My Brussels Sprout

I made Big Sis agree to take me to babies r us this weekend.
I was jonesing to do something, anything, baby related.
Jake is being good about tampering me from getting crazy too early.

I've started to notice that my belly is getting there.
Well, you know what I mean.
Soon there will be no denying that I've got a kid in there.

I'm starting to worry about Asher and getting him use to the idea of a baby.
Heck, getting him use to the idea that he doesn't sleep in our bed might be hard enough.
Jake and I are too soft when it comes to that...
Bt I don't know if I'll be able to deal with a dog and a crying baby in the middle of the night.
It's really more of a house training thing.

Yes, I admit to my almost 3 year old dog using puppy pads.
He sleep pees.
You think I'm joking.
I'm not.
We are thinking a kennel at night is the only way to get a handle on that.
I'm dreading it.
But, I figure it's like sleep training a toddler.
SIL is doing a big kid bed for Noah, and probably won't appreciate the parallel.

Anyway, registry started.
Everything is is at whatever right now.
Excuse me while I go take another nap.

October 9, 2013

Week 10: My Kumquat

10 weeks

Our baby is the size of a kumquat!!

That was my mom’s craving while she was pregnant with me.

I’ve been so tired lately. The idea of having enough energy to clean or do laundry seems like it will never happen. I know that my husband is not really appreciating my lack of energy, and he is trying to understand.

I love that man.

I’m actually feeling really great, other than the exhaustion. I haven’t had any morning sickness.
I’ve felt nauseous about 4-5 times, no getting sick though… Which I know is a blessing.

Jake and I have decided that we are going to be staying in our condo until Jake gets into med school, so long as our landlord doesn’t mind.
This means that I have been trying to go through all my clothes in order to fit both Jake and I into one sliding door closet.
We’ve never, ever shared a closet.
It’s a really weird anxiety, I know.
I’m thinking that I’ll be going through ALL my clothes, not just my closet, in order to make this happen.

The spare room is going to be our nursery.
I’m not sure about how I feel about it, because we don’t know how long we will be in the condo after the little nugget is here. I don’t want to paint a room that will have to be painted 3 months after we have a baby.
But then again, it will be our baby’s first room. First nursery.

So before too long I’ll be moving the sewing and craft supplies to the basement to make our basement the ‘all purpose room with so much crap in it you can’t walk.’
It’s pretty bad.

Ok, ok it’s not that bad. We are just really bad about filing paperwork in our filing cabinet. So, there is paper piled on the corner desk that have to be put away.
Add that to all the school books and supplies that Jake has for classes and you’ve got a verifiable mess.
However, Jake did say we could get rid of the overstuffed chair that came from his mom’s house that I haven’t sat in since we moved into the condo.
In place of it we think we might be getting a treadmill.
The ceiling might be too low.
Can you imagine if we got one and the ceiling was too low. Jake would have to take the ceiling tile off to use it.


I want to nap.

October 8, 2013

Week 9: My Cherry

Baby is the size of a cherry.
That's a little crazy.

This week we had out first apt.
I had minor, minor spotting right before we left the house. It was the first time it happened the whole pregnancy. I was a little freaked out, even though I knew others who had be though much worse, much earlier.

Jake was quick to get the prayer chain going, just in case.
I love that man.

We got there and everything checked out as perfect.
I measured exactly at 9 weeks.
My due date is exactly April 15th.
The little love's heartbeat was 167 and super strong.
It even stuck out its little leg and gave a wiggle for us.

I wish that every apt as an ultrasound.
Jake was a little hesitant, but cutely so. He went into medical mode and had to kinda snap himself out of it and just enjoy looking at our little peanut.
It was really cute.

Due to me not knowing my blood type I had to give a few extra vials of blood and it completely wore me out. After the apt we went to eat and I had Jake take me home.
I literally slept from 2-9:30...
It's getting to be a thing with me.
I think I'm trying to store all the sleep up so that I have some in reserve when our little bugger gets here.
Geese, don't you wish that we're true.

Anyway, It as a really awesome experience.

October 7, 2013

Week 8

I think I slept thrugh week 8.

No, seriousaly.

I really think I slept through week 8.

October 4, 2013

Week 7: My Blueberry

 August 27th, 2013

A blueberry with little arm and leg nubs, webbed hands and feet!
I can't believe it.
It's growing so fast.

Still no sign of pregnancy other than random uterus pains.
And no period, duh.
My bloating finally went away. I was really worried about twins for a second when I was bloated and unable to do anything with my abdomen.
I feel much more 'me' now.

This weekend, I think we are telling FIL and SMIL.
It's going to be at a family friend's wedding. I hope I can find an appropriate dress.
{This is the dress that I found.)

No weight gain yet, just the normal 1-2 pounds either way that's been going on since my metabolism stopped when I turned 23.

I'm still really excited for our first appointment.
It needs to be September 10th already, dangit!

Jake is a little on edge. He is taking a crazy class schedule right now and doesn't really have the time to stop and think about what's going on.
But he is getting more and more excited as time goes on.
Which makes me really excited.

October 3, 2013

Week 6: My Sweet Pea

 August 20th 2013

6 weeks today!
Our little one is the size of a grain of rice or a sweet pea, depending on who you ask!
It's so weird to think that something so small is making all of these weird changes happen.
I'm telling you, I can feel my insides moving.
Stretching back, twisting and forward bends are getting uncomfortable... Which makes my morning stretches really hard to do.
Not being comfortable cracking my back, especially with this back pain that I've been feeling is kinda frustrating.

I'm feeling pretty good.
My nausea feels like I'm overly hungry, so it's not as pressing right now.
I'm sure that could change, but I'm thankful for it right now.
Being tired Isn't new.
I'm just glad that I have an excuse for napping after work.
The moodiness is completely new.
And shocking.
I never though I would be 'one of those' pregnant women.
I try to keep it to myself, for the most part...
If I didn't, people would put me in seclusion.

I've been noshing on bananas, with honey and cinnamon.
It's delicious.
Not really a craving, but an easy little snack that is healthier than the chex mix we have right now.

I found myself missing alcohol for the first time.
Over the weekend SIL, who is 30 weeks pregnant, started talking about margaritas and mojitos.
Mmmm, just the word mojito.
I don''t want to talk about it.

One thing that I know that I have to be extra careful and aware of is comparing myself.
It's a long and involved issue that I have, that many women have.
With SIL and WJ being due this late fall/winter it's very interesting to see them and listen to their experiences.
Then, tailing WK in pregnancy by a mere 4 weeks makes me even more nervous, even though I know that it is different with all three of them going through their second/third pregnancies and me, my first.
Everyone does things differently.
Everyone makes different choices.
Everyone has different opinions.
Everyone has different doctors.
It's really interesting being the last one.
Not just in position in the line up, but do be going through pregnancy.
I thought that I would remember everything from when everyone went through it before.
I'm truly learning everything like it's the first time I've heard it.
Maybe it's because I actually have to apply what I've been told.

I really can't wait until I get to see our little one on that screen in 4 weeks.
I just want every confirmation possible.
I also really want Jake to connect.
He's a boy, and while his provider mode is good and expected... It's exhausting and a little confusing.
Add my crazy hormones into the mix and you get an interesting pairing in the two of us.

I'm loving this time.
It sounds like a lot of complaining...
But I love that I'm pregnant even more than I love the fact that I truly will not be visited by the crimson tide for almost a year.
I hear the angels singing.
All the craziness and hormones and weird body stuff is for the most beautiful reason in the whole world.

Newly Pregnant Realizations and Ponderings


Aug 6th
  • Having every pregnancy site blocked due to 'mature content' makes for a very bored prego.
  • I do not want to live in our condo for another full year.
  • The real challenge is keeping my husband from blurting out the news, not me.
  • Another Challenge is not letting this completely take over my brain. I still have things to do and a husband to love. While he is excited, see above, he is not as obsessive as I am.
  • Our self-estimated due date is Paisley's birthday. I don't know how I feel about that.
  • Bloating sucks.
  • Stretching feels really weird now. My stomach feels like there is a tight string going from my rib cage to my belly button. Not fun. Probably not pregnancy related, but still annoying.

August 7th
  • Do we need another car? I really don't want to deal with a second car payment.
  • What if it's twins? Or triplets? Jake just said 'Hey, one and done!'... Don't put that on me, Rickey Bobby!
  • I really don't want to stay in our condo for a whole year. I want to be able to truly make a nursery... And that place doesn't have enough closet space for the three of us. Sharing a closet/room is a recipe for the messiest disaster ever.
  • I need to turn up the cardio. Or start it.
  • My prenatal vitamin is throwing my whole internal schedule off. It's pissing me off.
  • I had an armaretto sour on July 28th. I have no idea if I was pregnant or not yet.
  • Poison ivy without Benedryl SUCKS!
  • Jake is worse about keeping secrets than I am. He is so ready to let everyone know, that I'm having to talk him out of it and plan specific days for sharing our big news. It's almost exhausting. Parents first. Then wait a week and tell siblings. No facebook or blog posts until after the first trimester is over.

August 8th
  • Having a mother who is a mother/infant nurse is pretty intense. Now I know how all 'my pregos' felt when she talked to them. You want to listen to everything she says. She also has the ability to put the fear of God into you.
  • I am completely afraid of labor.
  • My first pregnancy dream consisted of WK working in my building, my supervisor finding out I was pregnant before family and me having to chase down WK to tell her before the 'surprise' party.
  • Having 'The Bump' as the only open tab on your tablet when you open it around family means lying. Lies, lies lies lies....
  • Water all the time = Peeing. All. The. Time.
  • After I get my Invisalign buttons off, I'll probably need a bleaching treatment.... Looks like that's not happening until after breastfeeding is done.... Great.
  • I really do want to aim to be organic and healthy throughout this process and beyond, if I can.

August 9th
  • Every woman, and every pregnancy is different. I'm me. They are them. I need to do what I know is best for me. What works for me. What I want.... I also need to be sure to listen graciously and with an open mind and heart.
  • We're getting ready to share the news with my parents tonight, and Jake's mom and step dad tomorrow. I'm kinda sad to let this little secret go. I think it has bringing Jake and I closer together.
  • Last night I had a dream about going to a summer camp with WK, her dad, Big Sis and Jake... I had forgotten my bathing suit and had to have WK's dad drive me to find one. The only suits that any store had was a navy, vintage, high waisted 2 piece. It was weird.
  • ... If these little snaps that I'm having are any indication of complete mood swings to come, the world is in trouble.

August 13th
  • Jake wished for twins.... What if God was listening?.............................
  • We told our family over the weekend. Mainly we did this because SFIL is going to be doing radiation therapy for his thyroid and we thought sharing beforehand would be an extra positive for Grandparents to focus on. Jake also hated keeping it a secret.
  • Having the family know about the pregnancy this early is good and a little nerve wrecking. I'm really glad that someone else knows, and the support is amazing... But I'm worried about it getting out all the time... I also really loved having that little, sweet secret just between Jake and I. It was romantic.
  • I'm a planner. I'm already thinking strollers, themes, names. Jake is thinking MCAT. It's kinda hard because I want him to excited about the details... But I understand that he is going into provider mode.
August 15th
  • I am having major mood swings. Especially with patients that call me 'Hun' or 'sweetheart'.
  • OJ is now off limits. This is the worst I've felt in months...
August 22nd
  • I'm sleeping all the time. I'll be so lazy after getting home that I'll maybe do 1 productive thing, then turn on Antiques Road Show on Netflix and end up passing out.
August 23rd
  • Looking up everything I want to eat is a little tiring... Maybe organic isn't the best way to go. Anything unpasteurized is basically, an absolute no.
  • It must be nice to have no other responsibilities, other than to your family. And I don't mean that sarcastically.
  • I don't want to come back to work after I'm off for maternity leave. Unfortunately, I don't have a choice in the matter.
August 29th
  • While I've never had motion sickness, I'm constantly scared that morning sickness is similar. I'm afraid to drive myself anywhere when I'm having a really bad nauseous time... I've been told this is inaccurate. I don't believe them.
  • I'm terrible at taking belly pictures. I am into my pj's earlier and earlier every day.............. Maybe I should re-evaluate my life. lol

October 2, 2013

Week 5: My Sesame Seed

 August 13th, 2013

I'm currently 5 Weeks along and my baby is the size of a sesame seed!!!

Our due date is April 15th!

Best Moment of the Week: 
Telling our family that we were expecting.

What I Miss: 
That little secret just between Jake and I. I found it romantic, keeping a our pregnancy a secret. It was something that only the two of us knew about and talked about. We whispered to each other and spoke about our fears. We were able to talk about our future, even if we were nervous to really bring the subject up after I tested positive. The excitement was just between us.
It was sweet.

What I am Looking Forward to: 
Our first appointment so that I can tell my friends and co-workers.

Sore breasts.
My leg goes numb every once in a while... I'll blame it on pregnancy.

When we told my side of the family, my dad started asking about crib plans.
I'm excited for my dad to hand make a crib for our little one.

Jake and I are so excited for our little one! But the idea of the future makes us as nervous as any newly expecting parents.
{Asher is excited, too!}

I'm resisting any and every urge to jump straight into every aspect of being pregnant.
Bring on the cravings. 
Bring on the pregnancy books and journals.
Gimme that registry scanner.

I''m also finding myself being very critical of my body, all of a sudden.
I stand in the mirror and try to discern what is my body and what is the pregnancy. I'm guessing it's me, subconsciously looking for any sign of the life that is growing inside of me.
But as someone who never really thought about those kind of things or really analyzed herself in that way, it's been something that I've become aware of.
I do plan on starting some kind of pregnancy fitness something.
Maybe yoga will be good. 
Or maybe just going on nightly walks.
I want to find something that sticks... I guess we'll see.

We began telling family members this weekend, mainly due to SFIL starting his radiation therapy for his thyroid. We didn't want my absence from anything to get them suspicious... We also wanted to give some good news in a time when you might only focus on the worries and stress that comes with that kind of treatment. 
We knew that it was fairly early, but even if something went wrong the prayers and support from the family that knew would be what would be necessary to help us get through.
It was our 'right time.'

Friday night, Jake and I tried to get my parents to got o a movie so that we could tell them. It didn't work out because of my mom getting mandated. I am little sad that I didn't get the chance to share in that special moment alone with my mom and dad... But it all worked out in the end.

Saturday afternoon, Jake and I went over to MIL and SFIL's place to get ready for the Potentate's Ball. We were talking about the upcoming evening and I told them that I wouldn't be drinking that night.
They both paused and MIL excitedly asked, 'You aren't?!!!' Then followed quickly by 'You are?!!!!!!!!!!' Then rushed in to hug us both.
It was really nice.
Sunday afternoon, we went to brunch with my parents, Big Sis, B-Rad and Paisley, per usual.
Once we all ordered our breakfasts, this followed.
Me: 'Paisley, how old are you?'
Paisley: "I'm two!" holding up four fingers. "I'm four!"
Big Sis: "You're two."
Paisley: "I'm two."
Me: "Paisley, when is your birthday?"
Paisley: looking at me funny, "I don't know."
B-Rad: counting, trying to think of a way to help with out giving the answer, "It's in 8 months..."
Big Sis: "April 15th..."
Paisley: "April 15th."
Me: "And what happens in 8 month.... Oh, well 9 months..... Dang it!" looking at Jake, "I'm blowing this."
Jake: "Yeah you are."
"OMG! Are you pregnant?"
"You're pregnant?!"
"You're pregnant!!!!!"

Then we all hugged and talked about it.
I think a few of the people in the restaurant were annoyed by us, but who cares?!
Sunday evening, we went over to MIL's place for our Sunday family dinner, per usual.
Everyone was there but WK and Twin, who had just pulled up and were getting Gabe out of the car.
The second they walked in, people started getting all excited.
Gabe was wearing a 'I'm going to be a big brother' shirt.
Yep, you read that right!
We were all standing there and people were asking her if she really was pregnant.
When she had the chance to answer, "Yes", I chimed in with my response.
Me: "OMG, WK you're really pregnant?!"
WK: "Yep!"
Me: "Me, too!!"
WK: After the slightest pause, "You are?!"
The second round of congratulations and hugs started.
It was actually pretty funny.
She had just had her first appointment and was 8 weeks along.
She is due later in March.

October 1, 2013

We're Expecting!

Well, I didn't realize that this post was still in draft mode.
That's what not blogging for a while gets me.
Guess what!!!!!!!!
We haven't made it Facebook official yet, but its coming soon.

I'm so excited and over the moon!
Jake and I are expecting our first child April 15th, 2014!

(That's it's leg!)

Week 4: My Poppy Seed

 August 6th, 2013

How Far Along: 
4 weeks today by my calculations. Thank you very much 31 day cycles.

Size Of Baby: 
Small poppy seed.
Um, that's small.

Best Moment of the Week: 
Getting a positive and scheduling my first appointment!!

What I am Looking Forward to: 
Telling out parents and our first appointment!

Today must have been implantation day, because I was cramping a lot of the morning.
I can't tell if my hunger is increasing, or if skipping breakfast for so long really is what this is all. Now that I am trying to have an oatmeal bar in the morning I am hungry ALL day. 
I am snacking constantly because of my hunger pains.
Looks like it's time to bring in the local, healthy snacks.
Sugar snap peas and raspberries are really awesome right now, but I wouldn't call it a craving.

It's currently a giant walk in closet and sewing room.
I'm not going to like loosing that.

I tested yesterday morning.
And again after work.
It is very surreal to know that I am pregnant. I've been waiting and wanting for so long that knowing that I tested positive is just crazy. I told Jake right after taking my test... At 5:30am. He wanted to see the test and we had a quiet moment together. Me grinning like an idiot and him sleepily blown away. 
I went to work and managed to not tell my sister or parents.
Jake went and bought a store test for me. 
(The first that I took was from an ovulation test kit and he wanted a little more validation.)
The plus sign showed up RIGHT away.
I still can't believe it!
Jake is stressed, but excited, and that is all that matters.