January 31, 2011
January 30, 2011
January 29, 2011
I'm ancy. I'm not going to deny it. I haven't been as successful at organizing and putting away things as I would like (Mainly just in the office). I have to get this done before anything happens in the apartment. It's a goal, but then after that's done and over with what do I have to look forward to? Nothing.
Hence my delimma.
The walls are white. If we move we'll have to repaint them no matter what. Can I justify spending the $25+ a can to colorfully paint a place we don't plan on staying? We'll move no earlier than October 2012. Any amout of time after that depends on med school or house hunting. Either way we probably won't be in the apartment for any longer than 2 more years.
January 28, 2011
January 27, 2011
January 26, 2011
January 24, 2011
January 23, 2011
So dating/marrying a twin is a little bit more emotional/involved than you would think. It's even harder when they are the kind of twins that actually count themselves as friends as well as siblings. There is always a lot of comparing going on throughout the whole family.
"so-and-so did this, I wonder if the other will do it too.'
"so-and-so's grades were like this, lets see what the other ones are.'
'Well if one does it then the other will too.'
'This one has always been like this, while the other one always tends to do this.'
'This is typical of this twin. Sometimes the other follow suit.'
These are all common to hear throughout a conversation about them. And there is hardly ever conversation about just one twin. Usually they're both involved. And usually when twins are involved the spouses are brought up as well. I know it's normal to have conversations about a couple once they are considered a couple. But from the point of view from one of the spouses, it's sometimes stress full.
I've always cared about what other people think of me. It's hard not to. I don't see myself as the typical youngest, unless it involves self-consciousness, sometimes over sensitiveness, a smidgen of social awkwardness and tons of frustration with myself. Pair this with knowing that I'm talked about and compared whenever conversation about either twin is brought up. It amounts to a certain small amount of paranoia.
I'll have to admit that it's probably good for me, checking my actions and thinking twice before doing/saying something... But it also creates a problem when either household makes a life type of decision. The question of whether or not the other house is/would do the same is brought up.
It's crazy to imagine. To each their own, right? I dream of that being the case. Now, back to the twins.
They are identical. They have always done things together. Soccer, Lacrosse, Band (while one played sax and the other drums), Army national Guard. They both are attending the same college (at this time), taking the same courses, aiming for the same degree. Aiming for the same Med School, possibly different focuses (but only possibly). They are the same in their tastes for success.
Now, tack some wives onto the picture. TOB and I are very, very different people. It's not a bad thing. It's just palpable. We think about things and problem solve in different ways. We want and expect different things out of our lives. It's natural, and there is nothing wrong with that. I love her. She's family.
Now imagine me. Everything that they do smacks me in the face with the self consciousness and, unfortunately for my husband, ability to over think things. If they do it, should we do it too? Do they expect us to do the same so that the boys stay together? Do the boys want to be the same in this? Is what's right for them, right for us sometimes?
I know that I shouldn't worry about these things, and normally I wouldn't. But my husband is a twin. Identical twin. And his brother is his best friend. I want him to be happy.
While all the things I've mentioned about myself above are true, I also tend to hold grudges, I'm stubborn, strong willed, critical of others, motivated, and bossy.
I would love to live my life and not think once about how my life reflects/co insides with another household. No other sibling or sibling-in-law has this kind of hold on my thoughts. Not even and especially not my sister, who I consider the twin of my soul (mushy, I know). To each their own. They have lives to live and decisions to make about their family. how they live their lives and what they do during it isn't any of my concern. I'll voice my opinion about certain things.... But it's not my place to judge the life that they have. I do, but that's the critical side of me. It's hard not to.
The only thing stopping me from that is the trouble I have rationalizing and accepting the role of a wife married to an identical twin. Things aren't going to change. It'll always be 'this ones doing this, whats the other one doing?' and such.
I just don't like it... And therefore I take it out on the ones, I always feel, that are causing me to have these feelings.
I know that I'm doing it to myself.
I guess that's the hardest part.
January 22, 2011
Big Sis: From the back doesn't even look prego. I had better react to being prego the same way once it's my turn, or else I'm taking revenge. She's cute and perky and almost more agreeable now that she's prego. Still bossy, but that's the first born's job.
Big Sis's Hubs: Still temping, but the outcome of the long term temp job is looking good. He's settling down and still feeling a little cramped in my parents house... But then again who wouldn't after living on their own for 10+ years. I think things will work out for the better and soon enough he'll have his own trash to take out and lawn to mow.
Big Bro and Wife: Still trying to work their way out of the hole they dug themselves. Hopefully it happens sooner rather than later and they can pay some people back. But, that's what family is for and support is what they need. I can't help it if I get a little pissy about how long they take doing it and the little things that they refuse to change in the process..... Oy Vey.
'Rents: trying to build back their travel fund. Pops is making the crib for little Squish. I'm interested to see the end result. Mom is enjoying her Nook and getting excited about the arrival of Squish. She misses her other children, who don't live at home and therefore she doesn't see every day. I understand both sides of that one.
Gummy Bear: That little boy has a name. Not gonna say, but I got to feel him really kick the other day. I can't wait to meet him. His room is almost done and shower planning is starting to happen.
SIL: doesn't look prego. She's the hiding it type and so far has been doing a really good job. She still fits into a lot of her pre-prego clothes. I'm impressed. She's not working and has turned into a true house wife. I'm a little jealous. If I could I would be totally content cleaning my house and making meals for my husband.
SIL's Hubs: doing really well. Has started a health kick that I hope lasts. I've always felt bad that his family started picking on him for his little bit of extra weight.... Tough love still hurts. He did the same thing Jake and I did.... Downloaded P90X.
The Other Bride: Doing really well. A little paranoid about health stuff. Normal for any prego. She has been spending more time with the family... it's really nice.
Twin: Missing hanging out with Jake and actually verbalized it... I was impressed. Boys.
MIL & SFIL: Happy. Still dealing with some issues due to things that went on right after the wedding. Stupid, petty crap on the other person's side.
FIL: Might not be getting married in Feb. Crazy. Everyone is worn out about the on again-off again-on again situation. He needs to get his crap together. Ug.
January 21, 2011
January 20, 2011
January 19, 2011
January 18, 2011
January 15, 2011
Chapters I would be reading, if there were such a manual for my model.
- How to program the Chore mode for a weekly, or bi-weekly, setting.
- Contents seen during riviting computer facination, (since I know it's not dirty stuff, it's not his 'thing')
- How to activate the Lunch Packing function.
- How to deactivate the picky food mode.
- The 'When playfullness equals friskiness' rule book.
It's been an interesting week in our house....
January 14, 2011
January 13, 2011
I was looking for the stats about singing to babies while they're still in the womb... Well music and unborn babies in general...
Justin Bieber popped up and the title of the google link stated:
"Justin Bieber- The Singing Fetus"
I just thought I'd share.
January 11, 2011
January 10, 2011
For me, all of you reading that are thinking of making me a fixture in your child's life. I'm still refusing to be cauled Auntie, or Aunt E... don't make me hurt you.
Now to move on to other family members. Grandparents.
Here are some ideas, just in case you haven't thought of them yet. They're only ones that I like so deal with it.
Other options for other people to use: Nanna (scotch-itish), Gigi, Nona (italian), Oma (German/Dutch), Grammy, Amma, BeMa, Mum
Grandpa: Opa (German/Dutch), Papa, Granpy, Adda, BePa, Nono(italian), Da, Granda(scotch-itish)
My Ideas for my family:
My mom: Mia, Mum or Gramma
My dad: Granda or Granpa
Jake's mom: Grammy or Amma
Jake's step dad: Granpy or Adda
Jake's dad: Papa
Jake's Grandma R: Grandma R (it'll stay the same)
Jake's G-Rob: Oma
Jake's soon to be step grandpa: Nono
It's going to be confusing.
January 8, 2011
January 7, 2011
- The book was almost outlawed the year after it was published due to the wording. Why wasn't it then, at a time when all of the wounds from slavery were still fresh? Why wasn't it 50 years after? Why wasn't it changed in the 60's, when our nation struggled publicly with prejudice and social justice? Why wasn't it changed 100 years after, when we knew the wrongness of some of the language? Why now?
- There is a lot to be learned through living in the words of written words. In text books you are given the facts of our history... in classics like Huck Finn you stand face to face with a whole different world, and forced to look into a history that is uncomfortable and undeniable. When you are forced to read words that make you uncomfortable you are able to see just how wrong they are. The feeling of shame and embarrassment can be learned from.
- The book is a classic. Because some of the words are flagged as racially hostile when they were written in a racially hostile time you want to change it? You want to erase prejudice from our history? Really? You can't just pretend like slavery, prejudice and racism didn't exist... That like saying that it doesn't exist now........... And if you think that it doesn't, go watch all of the profiling that goes on in the news. And if you still don't think that it's an issue, you're in denial.
- The book reflects the culture of the time. The words are there for a reason. Political correctness shouldn't apply when talking about books written during that period of time. During that time, those words were seen as politically correct.
- By changing the words to the politically correct words of our time, are we denying that prejudice is an issue?
I understand that because of the wording it is an uncomfortable read for some people. I also understand that it's offensive. But how better to teach the next generations that words like 'injun' and the 'N-word' are offensive. Let them feel the shame of seeing those words used by characters they've become attached to.
Better there than on the playground.
How do you feel about this controversy?
January 6, 2011
January 5, 2011
Yes, we're crazy. It was Jake's idea and I'm game for an at home workout.
Getting to the gym is harder than I ever thought. I don't like going by myself and Jake not wanting or forgetting to go makes it even harder.
(Jake promised me a tredmil or eliptical when we get a house)
So replace anything gym related in my resolutions with this and we got a deal.
(Jake already did it this morning and I'm going to make him do it again when I get home tonight. Hahaha)
Fitness, here I come!
Now that I am graduated and considered a true adult in need of a full time job, I've started looking. It's hard to imagine myself in a job different from the one that I have currently. After 5 years of working here, picking up phones, writing work orders, making purchase orders, and playing on the computer, I find that I don't feel as if I'm qualified ot do anything.
Anyone know of a job where reading Wikipedia, playing Zuma Blitz, Facebook stalking and reading are the qualifications?
I've tried checking OSU's website for jobs but everything seems to be out of my league.
I'm excited to say that my internship supervisor asked me for my resume yesterday... But I don't really know what she'll do with it and who she'll give it to. I'm almost to the point of saying that I wouldn't mind 2 part time jobs. If only we could rely on Jake for benefits.
So I have until March to find a job...
Wish me luck.