Home Home Home

December 31, 2010

Day 30 – a dream for the future beyond the next year

My dream beyond the next year...

Other than 4 kids, med school and the happiest life imaginable?

A studio.

It's something I've wanted for a long time. I want a place for young adults like myself to express themselves. I want the oppertunity for an outlet for art. I want to allow my sister to teach dance on her own terms. I want to be my own boss. I want to work someplace where I wont be tied down to specific hours or rules. I want to bring my pets to work. I want to be the supporter of artists.


I want my place to have it all...
I want to be surrounded by people like me. Who live for art in any way, shape, or form. I want to work with people who enjoy their job.

Day 29 – Hopes,Dreams, Plans for the Next 365 Days

I thought this was fitting with the end of the year.

So my dreams, hopes and all that jazz for the next year...

That Jake's unit's deployment, set for September 11th, was cancelled. Selfish, I know. But in reality, I don't care. No I don't want my husband to be gone for a year in a land far away. I want him as close to 100% safe. That means home. This way he wont miss the first year of all his nieces and nephews lives. Plus he wont miss a year of our life together...

That I will get parts in shows. I want this year to be one of change for me.

That I find an awesome job where the benefits are good, the pay is great and the experience is awesome.

For Jake to finish school and start applying to med school... Only then are we 'allowed' to get pregnant.

For the new puppy that we get to be perfect for us. For us to find an awesome name for it and for our cup to runneth over. healthy and happy. That's all we want.

For me to be able to get invisilign. My jaw is majorly small and I finally might be able to afford braces... So I'm hoping for this year to me the year I can do it.

For my friends to enter my life again. I want to be sure that I take the time to be a good friend. i miss my girls.

For TOB and I to reconnect. I wish I could get rid of this weirdness that I feel between the two of us.

To get settled into the apartment. I want to get rid of all the clutter. I want the apartment to be clean and nice and livable...

That's about it.

Day 28: What’s In My Handbag/Purse

Yay! I love these types of things!

My coach bag in action...

glasses and case


hand sanitizer

hand lotion

Zune and headphones

Then the boring stuff:
petpeople rewards card
lip gloss
Brownie in a zip-lock bag

December 30, 2010

Day 27 – my worst habit

My WORST habit? goodness. I don't really know...

I guess it would have to be....

That I have to have the last word. it's somethign that didn't use to be me. But jake actually pointed it out lastnight while we were arguing/discussing how our nieces and nephews lives will effect our children's lives and jealousies...

It was a dumb argument and I tried to end it once...

But then he kept going.....

So I kept going....

Then he called me out on having to have the last word.

It was embarassing.

I didn't think I was one of those types of girls....

Oh well.


I miss my Pup. lastnight I was in an aweful mood. I was snippy and just an all around bia.

I cried when I got home...

I just don't understand why God chooses for some to walk the path of suffering and sorrow and others not. I wish that I could say that my life was all sunshiny out the ass before this...

Jake is mad at the world. He think's our life is destined to continue in this fashion. We haven't had it too rough. But our life together hasn't been a cake walk. He tends to focus on the bad stuff as it happens and take the good stuff for granted....

But then again don't we all...

I just remember driving with my pup to whoever's house we were headed to thanking God for the blessing that he brought into our family. And that was a few days before all the bad started happening.

I just don't understand. But then again, it's not my place to. He's got things figured out.... I just have to have faith.

Depression sucks.

Then we lost the key to my car... I only have 1 key. (Damn VW for having the switchblade keys that are uber expensive)

Zeke pulled them under the bed... It was a crisis while it lasted.

December 29, 2010

Day 26 – your week, in great detail

This ones dumb... I'm not doing it.

December 28, 2010

Day 25 – Your Day, In Great Detail

This morning I was woken up by my phone at 5:45. I hit snooze.

At 5:50, I turned off my alarm and went to get in the shower. I contemplated brushing my teeth before getting in, then decided against. Jake could deal. I peed and watched as my cat drug his feathered toy into the bathroom. It's longer than him with the handle and I contemplated the meaning. did he want to play with it? Did he want me to play with him? Was it like a security blanket? Then I wondered if the underwear I had worn to bed were too small.... Too much info?

Shower time. I got in and heard the bathroom door open.

Yes, Jake and I shower together. No, we don't do the nasty while we shower. It's a weekday and we had to be out the door by 6:50. Plus it's not my fav. Too much info, again?

Jake got out first. He only has to use the Old Spice hair and body wash once. I chose to condition my hair twice. I got out and did my hair flop. It was a good day for it and while my hair wasn't making a loud squish sound while I was putting my gel in, my curls were forming really nicely. After flopping my hair, I got dressed. Undies and socks first. (It's cold.) I didn't want to wear anything difficult and contemplated wearing the same sweatshirt I had yesterday. I decided that while it would be comfy, I didn't have to go to those extremes... Even though I hadn't done laundry since before Mav was sick.

After getting dressed, I did my face. Not makeup, but moisturizer and all that jazz... then went down stairs. Jake was watching sport center on our new TV and asked me if I had brushed my teeth. I said no and continued to put on my boots. Then after deciding that I still don't care about professional football, I went upstairs and suffered through water/spit dripping down my arm while I used my electric tooth brush. I was int he bedroom putting away jewelery and refused to run that early int he morning.

After cleaning myself up I went downstairs and started getting my jacket on. We left the house at 6:55. Late.

Jake pulled the car around to the front of our apartment and made me get out and check to make sure the front door was locked. Then we held hands as we drove to pick up Big Sis.

We picked up Big Sis. drove through the neighborhood to get to campus and got a front row parking spot. We walked through the buildings, rather than outside for our 10 minute walk into work. I was more than half asleep throughout all of that and I don't remember anything of what we talked about... we did talk though.

We got inside the hospital and I kissed Jake and Big Sis and I walked to the dental building. I got to my desk and clocked in. i was relieved that I didn't see anyone in the hallway and started doing my makeup.

I checked my email, facebook and blogger then got to writing about Christmas Eve. And now I'm doing this post....

Our Christmas Eve

It was the darkest couple of days in our marriage, thus far.

Sunday of last week Mav started throwing up about 1-3 hours after eating. I was concerned after it happened twice. he was growing skinnier and I was definitely not OK with that. It was hard because my family hounded me time after time about something that I had been watching happen. Yes, of course I had noticed that my dog has been losing weight rather than gaining it. Yes, we were worried. we were trying to make sure that all of our bases were covered at home before we took him to the vet, where we knew things would get pricier than a new bag of kibble.

When I took Mav to the vet. He had lost a whole pound in the 3 weeks since we were last there. A 6 pound dog doesn't have a pound to loose. We were given a multi-vitamin, fatty canned dog food for dogs with sensitive stomachs, and specific eating instructions. It seemed to go well. Mav loved the new food. He chowed it down like a pro.... Then proceeded it throw it up all over Jake within the hour. We tried the new food for almost 2 days.

It was 2 nights I spent sleeping downstairs on the couch with the little man. with the absence of the nutrition of his food he was lethargic so I made up games to play with him while he was resting. On the second day I stayed home from work. I could see putting him in a cage as a good idea while he was as sick as he was. Plus, I was tired of washing bedding, blankets and worrying the whole time I was at work.

It was a hard day home. I ended up calling the vet at least twice, and once Jake got home he called 2 more times before the night was over. with the last call we were instructed to bring Mav in first thing Thursday morning. We worried. I cried. Jake didn't sleep.

Thursday morning we dropped Mav off and after talking for a little about the possibilities of a stomach/intestinal obstruction as well as a quick brief on birth defects/gene issues, we went to finish our Christmas shopping. We were called at noon and told to come in and look at some xrays. I got to hold my little pup, who was attached to an IV, while we looked at his insides. It was interesting to see Jake in his element. Everything looked OK. His stomach looked full, even though he wasn't keeping food down. That looked more in favor of a stomach obstruction... Maybe it was foam or something similar.

We left him in better spirits, going to meet Jake's family for lunch and a dollar movie.

At 3pm we were called back to the vet. His barium swallow was moving at a normal pace. His insides looked great.... but he was still in bad shape. The vet started talking about surgery to get the mass of whatever it was out of his stomach. They'd do blood tests tonight and hopefully do the surgery in the morning.

Mav was a trooper throughout all of this. He was sweet and wanted nothing more than to be held by Jake and I. He would just cuddled up and stuck his nose in the crook of our elbows, just like nap time at home. All of the vet techs would oo and aah over his cuteness. they were all pulling for him, and he was a charmer.

Jake had to deal with me at home silently crying while we cleaned our house. I didn't want a puppy to be home and be reminded of being sick. Jake didn't say it at the time but the possibility of a Liver Shunt was in the fore front of his mind the entire time. I noticed that the symptoms were the same but refused to fully believe that something like that could happen to My little pup.

Friday morning we were told that the blood test "couldn't have been worse". It was so bad that after the vile was spun, Mav's blood looked like curdled milk. his liver was failing. Jake and I cried the entire morning.

At 10am we went into say good-bye to our perfect puppy. We understood the offer the vet made to allow Mav to come home as a kindness that would just hurt more than heal all three of us. The Dr. didn't want us to go through Christmas the way that we did. But I couldn't imagine a puppy in the shape Mav was in, being toted around as we "did Christmas". It wasn't fair. We needed our families, especially at that time. I was personally afraid of mav having seizures. I couldn't imagine the fear and pain he was going through. So we chose to put him down. On Christmas Eve. I knew that it was going to happen so I tried to get all of my heavy grieving out before hand so that mav's last moments with us could be more joyous.

Jake didn't allow himself that luxury.

I chose to go to the car, rather than be with Mav as he left this world. I knew Jake would stay with him. Jake needed me to be strong enough to calm and help him after everything was over.

I'm always going to wonder if that was the right decision to make for my family, or if it was the coward's way out of having to face death.

We went home, cried as we got dressed to go to our 3pm Christmas Eve service and went to Jake's mom's house. We were met with watery eyes and comforting hugs. Everyone was as broken hearted as we were about what happened. Being with family then as well as on Christmas truly helped us grieve. We were busy and had places to go, but we weren't allowed to wallow in our pain due to the things going on around us. I can't even imagine how things would have gone if it had happened any other time of year.

It's been the most emotional 2 weeks of my life. I can't even imagine if we had had that little guy for longer than the awesome 2 months that we did... Or if it was a family member, rather than a pet.

But God has blessed our lives with one perfect pup and will bless us with one again.

December 27, 2010

Day 24 – Where I live

  • The first ambulance service was established in Cincinnati in 1865.
  • Cleveland boasts America's first traffic light. It began on Aug. 5, 1914.
  • Ermal Fraze invented the pop-top can in Kettering.
  • James J. Ritty, of Dayton, invented the cash register in 1879 to stop his patrons from
  • pilfering house profits.
  • "Hang On Sloopy" is the official state rock song.
  • Cincinnati Reds were the first professional baseball team.
  • The Y Bridge in Zanesville was first built in 1814 to span the confluence of the Licking and
  • Muskingum Rivers. The current bridge is the fifth construction at the same location.
  • "Ripley's Believe It or Not" proclaimed it the only bridge in the world which you can cross
  • and still be on the same side of the river.
  • Akron was the first city to use police cars.
  • Cincinnati had the first professional city fire department.
  • Akron is the rubber capital of the world.
  • The American Federation of Labor was founded in Columbus.
  • Ohio senator John Glenn became the oldest man to venture into outer space.On February
  • 20, 1962 he was the first American to orbit the earth. In October of 1998 at age 77 he
  • returned to the space program and traveled back into space.
  • Cleveland is home to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame.
  • Ohio is the leading producer of greenhouse and nursery plants.
  • The Pro Football Hall of Fame is located in Canton.
  • Neil Armstrong became the first man to walk on the moon. He was from Wapakoneta.
  • The Wright Brothers are acknowledged as inventors of the first airplane they were from Dayton.
  • The popular television sit-com, "The Drew Cary Show" is set in Cleveland.
  • East Liverpool was the beginning point of the United States Public Land Survey. The location was the area from which a rectangular-grid land survey system was established
  • under the Ordinance of 1785. The survey provided for administration and subdivision of land in the Old Northwest Territory. The Ordinance stipulated that all public lands were to be divided into townships six miles square.
  • Seven United States presidents were born in Ohio. They are: Ulysses S. Grant, Rutherford B. Hayes, James A. Garfield, Benjamin Harrison, William McKinley, William H. Taft, and Warren G. Harding.
  • Some well-known personalities were born in Ohio. Among them Steven Spielberg, Paul Newman, Annie Oakley, Arsenio Hall and Clark Gable. The first full time automobile service station was opened in 1899 in Ohio.
  • In 1852 Ohio was the first state to enact laws protecting working women.
  • Ohio gave America its first hot dog in 1900. Harry M. Stevens created the popular dining dog.
  • Ohio became the 17th state on March 1, 1803.
  • East 105th Street and Euclid Avenue in Cleveland was the site of the first pedestrian button for the control of a traffic light. The boy chosen for the 1948 newsreel to demonstrate its operation was Louis Spronze.
  • Ohio has an area of 116,103 sq miles. It ranks 34th in state size.
  • Columbus is the state capital and Ohio's largest city.
  • 50% of the United States population lives within a 500 mile radius of Columbus.
  • Dresden is the home of the world's largest basket. It is located at Basket Village USA.
  • Fostoria is the only city to be situated in three counties (Seneca, Hancock & Wood).
  • Ohio's state flag is a pennant design. It is the only state flag of that design in the United States.
  • Ohio University was founded in 1804 at Athens and is recognized as the first university in Ohio and in the Northwest Territory.
  • Oberlin College was founded in 1833.It was the first interracial and coeducational college in the United States.
  • The Glacial Grooves on the north side of Kelleys Island are the largest easily accessible such grooves in the world. They were scoured into solid limestone bedrock about 18,000 years ago by the great ice sheet that covered part of North America.
  • Marietta was Ohio's first permanent settlement. Founded in 1788 by General Rufus Putnam and named in honor of Marie Antoinette, then queen of France.
  • Chillicothe was Ohio's first capital city.
  • Cleveland became the world's first city to be lighted electrically in 1879.
  • Ohio is known as the Buckeye State.
  • Thomas A. Edison from Milan developed the incandescent light bulb, phonograph, and early motion picture camera.
  • John Lambert of Ohio City made America's first automobile in 1891.
  • Charles Kettering of Loundonville invented the automobile self-starter in 1911.
  • Charles Goodyear of Akron developed the process of vulcanizing rubber in 1839.
  • Roy J. Plunkett of New Carlisle invented Teflon in 1938.
  • You know you're from Ohio if...
  • W.F. Semple of Mount Vernon patented chewing gum in 1869.
  • John Mercer Langston is believed to have been the first African American elected to public office. He was elected clerk of Brownhelm in 1854.
  • Long jumper DeHart Hubbard was the first African American to earn an Olympic Gold Medal. The award occurred during the 1924 Olympics games held in Paris. He set the record for long jumping.
  • Jesse Owens grew up in Cleveland. He won four gold medals in the 1936 Olympics in Berlin.
  • Paul Laurence Dunbar of Dayton is known as the poet laureate of African Americans.

December 26, 2010

The Hardest Christmas

Jake and I had to put Maverick down on Friday. Christmas Eve sucked... That's the only way to explain it.

He went from bad on Monday, to worse.

In a quick recap that I will go into on Monday, the last Mav Monday, when I explain everything, We thought it was a bowel/stomach obstruction. Then when we did blood work for the surgery we found out that he was basically going through liver failure. We chose to put him down Christmas Eve because doing anything otherwise would have been worse for everyone. We were scared of the possibility of seizures and having him be in pain.

So we lost our little pup man. He's in heaven now.

Being around family and friends during this time has truly helped ease the pain some. I still feel like I should be stuffing Kongs and taking potty breaks every half hour.

It's soon, but our breeder has offered us a replacement puppy from one of the 2 litters she has due in January. We're going to take her up on her offer. So come March we will have a new puppy... The idea of that is also helping to heal the wound... But we truly miss our little man.

RIP my little baby pup.

Day 23 – a youtube video


December 25, 2010

Day 22 – a website

MY fav. right now. I wish I could afford it.


December 24, 2010

Day 21 – a recipe

My absolute FAVORITE thing ever that I would make forever and always.

Puppy Chow

1/2 cup peanut butter1/4 cup butter1 cup chocolate chips1/2 teaspoon vanilla9 cups Crispix cereal (any flavor)1-1/2 cups powdered sugar

1. Combine peanut butter, butter and chocolate chips in a microwave safe bowl.
2. Microwave for one minute then stir to blend all ingredients thoroughly. Add 1/2 tsp. vanilla. Stir well.
3. Place the 9 cups of Crispix cereal in a very large bowl.
4. Pour the peanut butter-chocolate mixture over the cereal and toss evenly, making sure all the cereal gets a good covering.
5. Coat with powdered sugar, sprinkling evenly over the cereal and tossing as you sprinkle to cover each piece well.

December 23, 2010

Day 20 – a hobby of yours

A hobby??? Like what? Laundry? Playing games online?

The only thing that I can think of that can be considered a hobby would be scrap booking.
But I haven't done it in a very long time due to weddings and such. i like to scrapbook though. As long as I have the supplies and the time to actually do it.

December 22, 2010

My Nook Review

Here is my complete Nook review for those of you thinking about getting one.

So when Jake took me into B&N to purchase my Nook he gave me free reign to pick whichever version I wanted. (this was the debut day of the Nook Color). I was over the moon and took my time weighing the pros and cons of each.

It's so hard to turn down new technology. Just the option of having a full color screen was almost too much. In the end I chose the basic Nook due to these things.
  • I'm an avid reader. This means sometimes hours upon hours of reading all at once. For this aspect of my life the EInk made the most sense. It's already been tested as being easy on the eyes... The Nook Color is LED and goodness knows how bad that is for your eyes. For my reading habits it would be like staring at a computer screen for hours upon end, and I do that enough at work. For that reason I choose the Nook, not the Nook Color.
  • I however do understand the draw for having the Nook Color for the magazine and children's book aspect. It's nearly irresistible. However, Thinking about how I want to raise my children (even though I don't have any) and realizing that while it is handy, I never want to set my children down in front of something (TV, computer, Nook, smart phone) and expect the electronic device to entertain/babysit them... The Nook would be just for me... and I don't read enough magazines to justify the color screen. win: Nook.
  • Battery life isn't very impressive due to the tablet likeness of the Nook Color.
Those 2 arguments put the Nook Color out of my hands and I didn't feel bad about it.

Now for choosing between the 3G and the Wi-fi.
  • Never will I leave the house without a book on my Nook... Therefore the 3G, costing $50 more, is deemed unnecessary.
  • Also, I will always have a phone with Internet capabilities with me... problem fixed.
  • And if I ever need a quick download spot I can just stop into a free wi-fi hot spot... But in truth I can't see anything getting past my first argument on this topic...
This concluded my choice in being with the cheapest version of the Nook. My husband couldn't have been more proud.

My experience with the Nook thus far:
  • Free books are an awesome idea, however it would help if less of them were romance novels.... or erotica... It was quite a surprise getting into my first 71 pg book and finding out exactly why it was free.... Unfortunately there is no way to know for sure the difference between them when picking them out... They're free, for petes sake.
  • The LendMe aspect is so exciting. I've yet to find someone to do this with but I can't wait.
  • The lending option with the library. I've yet to try this as well because I'm in the process of getting through the free Classics that were available. Yay Dracula/Little Women/ Pride and Prejudice!!!
  • The little touch screen is awesome and turns off after a while so the back lighting isn't blinding. If you're a person who chooses your books by their cover (Big Sis) there is a option to show the books by the cover and choose them.
  • The EInk screen is AMAZING and so much like reading a true book that it's scary.
  • The weirdness of the page turning etch-a-sketch effect goes away within the first 1-2 hours of reading time. Now I don't even notice it.
  • Sudoku..... Guess what I was doing the last few days of classes...(there's also chess)
  • Start up takes a little bit. But it's easy to finish up everything so you can have a solid time for reading.
  • the battery lasts FOREVER. I'm talking impressive. and charge time is minimal.
  • You can put pictures in it to use as screen savers or backgrounds... i prefer the simplistic touch of the pictures already in it. But a cool aspect none the less.
  • MP3 capabilities... Haven't used it, but a nice feature.
  • if you're use to your phones touch screen keypad, searching on this with wi-fi will be no problem... However I prefer to just search and purchase my books while I'm online at work or home.. Easy peasy.
  • After reading a book you archive it and it comes off your Nook... and you can rate it for other readers out there... I've been doing a lot of 2-3 stars with the free books offered... I can't wait until after Christmas, when I can buy some books I actually have been wanting to read.

All in all.......


Day 19 – a talent of yours

I have a youtube channel... Which will be updated very soon. It's still in the works.

Hope you like it!

December 21, 2010

Day 18 – your wedding/future wedding/past wedding

Oh goodness.

November 27th, 2009.

It was Black Friday, cold and the best day of my life.

My dad got a TV that morning from Sam's Club's Black Friday door buster sale at 5am... Then walked me down the isle that evening.

I wasn't nervous. everything was perfect.

Some pictures.

Mav Tuesday: New Weight Issues

I had to do a Mav update due to visiting the Vet last night and the need for prayers...

Warning: This is a dog post. Poop, pee, vomit and other nasty things will be discussed.

In true Maverick form this past week has brought another crazy issue...

Never did I ever imagine Mav would be a difficult dog. I don't know if I necessarily pictured us frolicking through meadows or anything like that...

But I never pictured all of the Vet techs knowing us by sight. They do.

So, Maverick has been on 3 different foods since he has come to us. I was concerned about the Purina Puppy Chow being not as good as other foods that were out there. The issues with all of the fillers and unnatural ingredients... So when we went to the vet for the first time they gave us a bag of Science Diet. I decided it sounded O.K., so we started mixing them together for the mandatory 14 days before completely switching him over. All of a sudden his stools became kinda loose... Not dirreah loose, but not solid poopie. I worried but he continued to act peppy, spunky and normal, so I just thought it was something that would pass...

Then he lost a little weight. Not a whole lot but anything lost weight wise on him is noticeable. At the vet he was 6lbs 2oz. a good weight for his size... But after losing a little of that weight I decided to find a food that was more natural and possibly better for him than the Science Diet... I started doing research online about food brands and meal ideas and was steered toward Blue Buffalo. I thought it was worth a try with all the natural ingredients. So we started the switch.

That was about a week and a half ago... He's lost more weight. My family was concerned. I was concerned. Jake was trying to not upset me by being concerned...

I called the vet and thinking that because it had been 3 weeks since his booster shots that I should call and see what they would think about the situation... They had me schedule an appointment... I got in Monday night, like always.

Mav had lost 1lb... He weighed 5lbs 2oz. That's a lot of weight for a toy breed to loose. So the vet let Mav try a high calorie canned food to check his appetite. It was perfect. so we got sent home with 7 cans of that, a multi-vitamin and a tube to grab a stool sample for them...

Mav pooped within 5 minutes of being home. Sweet, one thing done. I drove the 3 minutes to the vet and dropped the stool sample off. One thing down. It's being sent for testing. we'll hear back in 2-3 days.

In the mean time Mav is going to be eating like a king. 1/2 a can of A.D. food twice a day. We have to weigh him in again an 10-14 days. If he hasn't gained the weight or he has gotten worse int hat time period it's not going to be pretty. But Dr. B didn't want to go into panic mode until we see if he can gain the weight.

OH. Get this. about 30 mins after being home I noticed Mav burping a lot while he was cuddling with Jake... I went upstairs to pee and all of a sudden Jake starts yelling for me... Mav threw up on him. I couldn't just cut things short mid pee so Jake was stripping when I got downstairs... Evidently I think dog vom smells like dog food... Jake thinks it smells like half digested nastiness... Whats the difference.

Anyway after both boys showering and Mav and I cuddling for a little Mav got up and ran upstairs. I thought he was going to poop... Nah, he decided to vom 2 more times in order to get the 2 small slices of hot dog out of his stomach that he swallowed whole... I had given them to him as a treat for peeing in his litter box.... He's not getting that as a treat anymore.

So the tired boy got more mom time before going to bed... he seems to be fine now and loved his new food for breakfast.

We'll see how this goes.

Prayers are needed that this is just an issue with a growth spurt and not anything more serious.

He was acting normal this morning...

December 20, 2010

Maverick Monday: Gums and Meds

So last you heard Mav looked like one of the three stooges. By the next week he was back to looking like my pooch with a little bar fight action. He had a ring of scabbing going right over the top of his muzzle from where the kennel bar dug into his nose. (makes me so sad just thinking about it, but here's a picture of the scar.)

A few days later Big Sis was at the house hanging out and told me that while Mav was sitting on her lap she noticed that his mouth smelled coppery, like blood. I brushed it off and told her it was probably Mav cutting his premolars, finally. She then proceeded to check his mouth... And low and behold there was something on his gums. we didn't know what it was and thought that yes, truly,he was cutting teeth. The little grayish white spot had to be his tooth coming in. I had a vet appointment scheduled to finish up his shots so I took Mav in and showed the vet his mouth.
An ulceration. What? evidently the bruising from getting his mouth caught caused his gums to form an ulcer... he was getting antibiotics.

Also the tooth might die.

I'm still traumatized by that little tid-bit... gross.

So for 2 weeks we fought with him trying to get him to take his liquid meds. It was awful. He hated it. I hated it. Jake hated it. There was nothing worse than Mav seeing the little syringe and having to fight him tooth and nail to get it into his system... you can only get lucky with a sleepy puppy about twice...

One time I sneak attacked him and squirted the meds into his mouth while he was yawning... I don't know who was more surprised that it worked, me or Mav... He glared at me for a while after that.

He's better now and his tooth is starting to look a little yellow. It's little tip has chipped and I think that it's probably dead and just waiting for the right time to come out. I can't wait to have a crazy looking dog with a missing tooth. He's already weird enough. But I'm glad that it's just the puppy tooth and that his adult canine will come in before too long...

I'm still dreading the idea of finding a canine tooth somewhere around the house... for some reason baby teeth totally gross me out.

Day 17: an art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc)

This was hard to choose... But this has to be my favorite.

I adore baroque art and Jean-Honore Fragonard's 'The Swing' is the perfect painting to show the best of that era. The style, movement and romance of the peroid is just amazing.
Love it!

December 19, 2010

Day 16: A song that makes you cry

well, since we've established that many songs make me cry, I'll give you one of the favs. It's one of the ones from high school where I would play it over and over and over again. It was the epitome of my love life before Jake...

The guitar in this song is just breath taking.

It's one of those songs that I wish I had written first. It wasn't a radio played song or anything... but it feels like something that I should have written in high school, in that time in my life when everything seemed to be so clear and when every incident caused pinpoint emotion...

Sorry - Maria Mena

December 18, 2010

Day 15: Your dream house

I'm lucky enough that my dream house is a family goal. Jake wants to get the chance later in life to build a house.

For the exterior, give me the French architectural style any day... I adore the different levels and shapes that are used in some of the designs. Yay bay windows and arched entryways.

Some examples of exteriors I love.

Since I plan on having 4 kids, here are the requirements of the house...

Master bedroom (w/fireplace)
Master bath (w/ walk in closet)
4-5 bedrooms (one guest room/small office)
2-3 bathrooms
Great room (family/dining room, w/fireplace)
laundry room
living room

game/movie room
workout room/area

Plus the big back yard and 2 car garage.

I can't wait for Jake to become a doctor.....

December 17, 2010

Niece and Nephew

That's right. Jake and I get one of each!!!!

Big Sis is having a little girl. They don't have any ideas about names. They want something unique but not weird. So far top picks are Brynn and Emry. She's due April 16th.

Personally I have a soft spot for Ainsley, Kaylen, Emmalynn and Lynnlee.... They would be SO cute with their last name.


SIL is having a boy!!!!!!!!!!!! They just found out on Wednesday and I couldn't be happier for them. I believe their front runner name is Gabriel. (It's been a fav of theirs for years.) She's due May 6th. 

So ther you have it! An Aunt Erin on both sides.

But I swear if I become 'Auntie' or 'Aunt-E', I won't be pleased.

Day 14: A non-fictional book

One of the best autobiographies that I've read. Plus I can't resist personal pictures form personal icons.

Home, Julie Andrews
Since her first appearance on screen in Mary Poppins, Julie Andrews has played a series of memorable roles that have endeared her to generations. But she has never told the story of her life before fame. Until now.

In Home: A Memoir of My Early Years, Julie takes her readers on a warm, moving, and often humorous journey from a difficult upbringing in war-torn Britain to the brink of international stardom in America. Her memoir begins in 1935, when Julie was born to an aspiring vaudevillian mother and a teacher father, and takes readers to 1962, when Walt Disney himself saw her on Broadway and cast her as the world's most famous nanny.

Along the way, she weathered the London Blitz of World War II; her parents' painful divorce; her mother's turbulent second marriage to Canadian tenor Ted Andrews, and a childhood spent on radio, in music halls, and giving concert performances all over England. Julie's professional career began at the age of twelve, and in 1948 she became the youngest solo performer ever to participate in a Royal Command Performance before the Queen. When only eighteen, she left home for the United States to make her Broadway debut in The Boy Friend, and thus began her meteoric rise to stardom.

Home is filled with numerous anecdotes, including stories of performing in My Fair Lady with Rex Harrison on Broadway and in the West End, and in Camelot with Richard Burton on Broadway; her first marriage to famed set and costume designer Tony Walton, culminating with the birth of their daughter, Emma; and the call from Hollywood and what lay beyond.

Julie Andrews' career has flourished over seven decades. From her legendary Broadway performances, to her roles in such iconic films as The Sound of Music, Mary Poppins, Thoroughly Modern Millie, Hawaii, 10, and The Princess Diaries, to her award-winning television appearances, multiple album releases, concert tours, international humanitarian work, best-selling children's books, and championship of literacy, Julie's influence spans generations. Today, she lives with her husband of thirty-eight years, the acclaimed writer/director Blake Edwards; they have five children and seven grandchildren.

Featuring over fifty personal photos, many never before seen, this is the personal memoir Julie Andrews' audiences have been waiting for.

December 16, 2010

Day 13: A fictional book

The Guardian's Key by Anne Logston

It's an adult short fiction. Magic, love, intrigue, mystery, dragons and such...
Everyone knew the dark legend of Crystal Keep...
Of its endless hallways and infinite doors. Of the all-knowing Oracle hidden within its walls. And of the all-powerful Guardian who challenged those who dared to enter.

No one knew for sure what was truth and what was rumor, except that very few people went there. And even fewer returned.But Dara knew it was her only hope.

So begins a strange and mysterious journey of discovery, a young woman's search for her own special magic--and her own self. Behind every door awaits new worlds of possibility. And deep within every heart lies the greatest secret of all: that strength and courage have a magic all their own

So good.

December 15, 2010

Anniversary Present

So I just realized that I forgot to tell you how my anniversary went.

Due to Jake's dad planning his thanksgiving dinner on our anniversary Jake and I exchanged gifts early. About the Monday before, actually. But the night before we decided to go to a restaurant we've never been to before. We went to Spaghetti's. I know, classy, right? but it was amazing and sooooo yummy.

Then Saturday morning we got ready to go to Jake's grandma's in our OSU garb to watch the OSU/ MI game. I wasn't as interested so I took my school work so I could work on finals and papers and such... We quickly ate a piece of our frozen cake before we left and washed it down with a generous glass of milk. it was pretty gross....

The rest of the day was spent awkwardly at his grandma's (she wasn't there, she was at the football game) watching date night, eating dried out turkey and having to smell baked oysters. It was lovely...

I got him a new game... Halo, I think. I don't really know because I let him pick it out.

He got me a NOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yeah buddy!

I love it even though I have yet to download a book I really want to read. All of the free nookbooks are trashy romance novels or sneak peaks into books that really cost $10 to download... Or classics like Dracula, little women and stuff like that..

But I'm excited to get money for it this Christmas... hopefully.

Day 12: something you are OCD about

OH goodness. There, evidently, is so much that I'm OCD about. Something that I haven't shared (if you remember this post) that I'm OCD about would have to be....


I love making lists. give me an event and I'll make a list for it. Grocery, gifts, cleaning, to-do, guest list.

It all started with the wedding. Go figure. Before then it was just an occasional thing. Now I have a list for everything. And once something is done I like to remake the list with prettier hand writing and neater cross-offs. It's something else...

You should see my christmas shopping list.

December 14, 2010

Day 11: a photo of you recently

This is the most recent that I have on my computer... It's ffrom my MIL's wedding on Oct. 9th. I'm second from the left. I'll check and see if I can get some more downloaded tonight.

December 13, 2010

Day 10: a picture from 10 or more years ago

Me, Big sis and Big Bro... Circa 1988:

Me and Pops around 1990-199.... (Big sis was in a clown class and I was the mascot because I was too young...)

Maverick Monday: Fever

No I'm not talking about the song... (Although it's a good one. Check it out on youtube done by A Fine Frenzy)

Day 6 of owning one rascal of a pup I was hanging out and watching TV when I noticed that Mav, while cuddling with me, was pretty dang hot.

Not O La La, hot... Like, 'I'm sorry I'm sweating while holding you' hot.

I thought it was just a figment of my imagination and when Jake came home I didn't mention it...

Then Jake said he wanted to play with Mav but Mav just wanted to sleep... We both decided it was weird. So I did the dumbest thing ever and went to look up what his temp should be and what could be causing the temp... Everything said death.
So I made Jake cool the pup off with a wet rag while I rushed to the grocery store to buy a thermometer... Why we didn't have one, I have no idea...

So i got a thermometer and those plastic covers...I figured since I was going to be putting the thermometer where the sun don't shine, it was a good investment.

Mav's temp was 103.6.... (101 is normal...) I freaked out.

So that night, Mav slept in his basket on our bed and I scheduled a vet apt for the next day.

When I came home early to check on the little sick boy I pulled him out of his little plastic crate only to look at him and wonder whose dog I was holding. Surely my dog didn't look like a bull terrier.... My dog had a narrow long snout... Very aerodynamic.... Not this huge schnoz...

Maverick's muzzle was swollen. He had gotten his face stuck in the door to his little kennel sometime during the day and it bruised... Perfect. Now the vet will think that I punched my dog right in the face.


December 12, 2010

Day 9: a photo you took

Here's a series I took while taking photography in high school. With real fixer and developer and dark room...They're probably my fav pictures I've ever taken.

December 11, 2010

Day 8: a picture that makes me sad/angry

I'm a family person. I've always been that way. I see blood as being thicker and richer than water. But it's hard when you need water to survive.

I'm not a very good friend. I'm kinda self absorbed and I enjoy doing things that i like to do. I don't like doing things that I don't like to do.... And I will refuse to do them.

I also have a particular way of looking at the idea of friendship. I'm very much of the mind that if I reach out and there is no response then balls in their court. I'm not going to go out of my way to please another person or force my way into their life. I think that I do this as a survival tactic. If I leave it up to them I can say I did my part and leave it at that. The other persona can't say I didn't try...

This way of thinking leaves you with very few friends... Mainly because one time of reaching out isn't enough. People are busy.

I just wish I could get over the 'if they really want to hang out then they'll call and we'll hang out' mentality. It's not working for me....

So these pictures represent all the friends I wish I had tried harder to have/keep in my life. I don't know if I'm more sad that these pictures all took place over 2 years ago, or if there are so few of them in the first place.