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October 27, 2009

Pandora Love

2 years ago my FMIL started something that I'm going to infect every woman I know with.

A Pandora.

No, not the radio station website (that I'm also addicted to) But the charm bracelets.

FMIL gave FSIL a Pandora bracelet as a night-before-the-wedding present and on it was this adorable wedding cake with a cute little gold cake topper. Everyone was very impressed and all the girl's hearts in the room melted. It was a surprise for TOB and I to receive our Pandora bracelets for Christmas with our own little heart charm. Each different and special.

The next charm I got for my 21st birthday.

The next event that happened was an engagement for TOB (then TOF). This prompted FMIL to get me a charm as well... Though it wasn't as expensive as the one TOB got because it was her engagement. (understandable)

Then it was Christmas again and I got a suitcase that stood for all the traveling I was doing to see Jake while he was in AIT.

The next charm I received was another dangling heart that had a red inside for our engagement.

I'm so excited to keep this going. I've gifted charms and bracelets to the other girls involved and I plan on continuing and adding people into the tradition.... What is cooler than getting a charm for every meaningful and special event in your life? I wear my bracelet every day and play with it constantly. if you look you can see it in every picture I'm in over the past 2 years. That's how much I love it.

What sentimental tradition do you participate in?

October 26, 2009

Weekend Move

First off... Sorry I was such a loser last week. I don't know what my deal was not posting.

We moved alll of Jake's crap into our new place!!! Yay!

Friday night I rode with Jake, FSIL and FMIL to Cincinnati, where FSIL was moving from. We had an awesome dinner at an Irish pub and finally got to the apartment around 10pm. We all decided to crash and wake up to pack the moving truck. By 9am Sat. We were all up and moving furniture and boxes into a rental moving truck. It took 2 hours longer than we thought it would with only 3 boys moving furniture and trying to play tetris with all the crap. Needless to say we got everything in (barely) and got to FSIL's new house. (Which is totally adorable). We unloaded in record time (45 mins with a pizza break in there) and were on our way to the next destination.

Once at FMIL's house we realized that none of Jake's things were ready. So we recruited Twin and TOB to help. Once we had fresh blood things went better. FMIL, TOB, FSIL and I all headed straight to the townhouse while the boys all went to the next destination. My sister's apt.

While us 4 girl's started cleaning and making sure the sloppy joe's were awesome the boys loaded a LARGE sectional couch (with hid-a-bed) and a 300lb TV (glass 32 inch) which took 1 1/2 hours. By the time the truck was there my whole family, Jake's whole family and some random old neighbors were all helping.... And we had WAY less stuff than FSIL. It was kinda funny.

It was interesting, to say the least.

Yesterday Jake and I got odds and ends for our place. Blinds, clothes baskets, a new filter, trash bags and shower curtain hooks so Jake could function. Then we went to our 2nd couples meeting with our officiant.

It was interesting going over all of our test results and seeing nothing that was surprising. It's good to know that we're both very devoted to each other and in the same place on our couples map... Even if our communication and active listening needs some work... It's all stuff we already knew about... Just haven't really approached yet. But it'll be good to go over in our next meeting.

32 days!!!

October 23, 2009

ITBAW in the Tight Fist of Fear

So the most important transition in the whole book of Esther is v. 11-16. Ester goes from self preservation with her whole 'I can't' 'It's too much.' mind frame to brave determination in stating that she would go before King Xerxes and 'if I parish, I parish.'

this is based off of three shifts in her.

1. She had a choice. She had a huge decision. Possibly save her people.... Or let everyone she knew and loved die. She got over herself.

In life we can protect ourselves so much that we miss our calling. You gettin' this? You can be one brave, selfless decision from changing your path. I don't know how many times I've been too afraid of doing something because I'd look stupid or because I thought people would judge me. We all have. The fear of rejection is a big one for me. I'm always too afraid to put myself out there and try... So instead I just go on with life and pretend the opportunity didn't even approach me.

2. She faced the fear.

Beth Moore talked about the Casting Crowns song 'east to West' and I want to share that here along with 1 Cor. 2:9.... You read that while I find the lyrics.

East to West - Casting Crowns
Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other

The activity this week was to look beyond the fear to whats next. I have to admit this was the hardest part of the week. Admitting what I'm afraid of more than anything else and looking to what I'd do after... No thanks...

So here's my 'if, then' statement.
If I am not a success, Then I'll do it because I love it.
If I do it wrong, Then I'm wrong...
If I mess it up, Then I mess it up and then I'll move on.
If I lose everyone, Then I'll still have God.
If I can't have children, Then We'll adopt a bus load of them.
If I lose my way, Then God will lead me to the right path.
If I never find a job that makes me happy, then I'll live through it and find one that works.
If I die, Then God will welcome me home.

Our deaths are just a part.. one single part of our destiny... we have to live until we die, and live like we'll never die! Why dread 1000 deaths while we're waiting for just the 1?

'The enemy' is satin... Just in case you didn't know... So Beth Moore said 'The enemy will keep threatening us with those fears if he knows you hold on to them because he knows he'll get a psychological response.' He'll keep pushing and goading and threatening us with those fears until we become someone we don't even recognize. He'll have us become paranoid about it. Completely paranoid... All because he knows he'll get a response. And in that time of fear he thinks we'll have a moment of weakness to put a chip in our security in God. But we have to face our fears. address them. look beyond them.

No one is born brave... And there is a difference between courage and denial. Denial is a cop-out.

The most frequent command in the bible is 'Do not be afraid'.... Do not be afraid for I am the Lord, your God. It's such an awesome statement.

3. She took the courage.

that's right... She TOOK the courage. Courage is not the absence of fear...But the knowledge that there is something is more important than the fear at steak...

don't you realize that you may be one brave decision from changing your path?!
Making any sense? I hope this spoke to you even in it's jumbled mess of thoughts. There is so much I know I miss out on due to my fears. Now it's time to face them and move on.

October 21, 2009

I Miss My Camera

Yesterday was eventful... In the uneventful kind of way.

Jake and I met to pick up our townhouse keys! We took over a tub, a box of DvD's and our vacuum. Then we left to get (in our new neck of the woods) Chipotle because Jake had a 2 for 1 coupon. SCORE!

Then I made Jake tell me the quickest way to get to my voice lesson... now we didn't move to a different city. The new place is literally 4 minutes away from my parent's house... And I've been to our new neck of the woods many, many, MANY times. But I've yet to figure out the whole map thing. I mean really.... if I cant see the Payless next to the bank on the same side of the street as the McDonald's I just don't know where your trying to take me. But I made it to my voice lesson right on time. And I had a slammin' lesson!

After which I went home and caught myself up on Heroes and kitten cuddle time until Pops came home.

Then I took my parents over to our new place. dad started saying things like 'I like the new digs' and 'its sweet that you have a car port.' I couldn't take it. So we discussed taking pictures of any damage and I made them leave. My dad trying to be 'hip' was just too much.

Then I was back home waiting for Jake to call me after class. But... I fell asleep.

Awesome, right?!

Today already has consisted of more content in the past 3 hours than in my entire day yesterday. I pulled up a budget, went to the bank, scheduled 3 vendor appointments, scheduled a dental appointment, emailed a pep talk to a friends who hit his first rough spot in his engagement and put on my makeup... (yes I wait until I get to work to put on my makeup. it's just so much easier that way)

final meeting with florist planned
final meeting with DJ planned
second meeting with officiant planned

To-Do before Friday:
talk wedding budget with parents and fiance
start making must play list
start making list of must take pictures
get renter's insurance
schedule hair trial
buy guest book
dye hair
get hair cut (and take extensions)
touch base with videographer (Jake's friend)
finish poms

October 20, 2009

Engagement Pictures!

Some of my fav. e-pics! Hope you enjoy!

October 16, 2009

ITBAW Thrown a Giant-Sized Weight

Anyone know what I'm talking about? Come on now, I know I'm not alone on this one.

So this past week's bible study session was all about timing. Good timing. Bad timing. Your timing. My timing... God's timing. It was a very hefty thing to hear and read about all week. Now just remember what I'm going to say today isn't necessarily what was said in the session... But my take on what was discussed.So the awesome Beth Moore stated that the most famous part of the book of Esther is from 4: verse (let me check, let me check) 12-16.

Back story: Haman is evil. His name closely resembles the Hebrew word for wrath... Which in some way relates to the devil. I don't remember the connection exactly so I wont mess things up by botching it. Haman got miffed because Mordecai wouldn't bow to him... Mordecai is a Jew and followed the 1st commandment (good job Mory!) This enraged Haman so he set a decree to kill all Jews in the Persian Empire. He told the king and when he did he twisted his words to make it seem as if they were a unruly lot of people. So the king gave Haman his signet ring and told him to do with the Jews as he pleased. BAD NEWS. So the Jews had 11 months to wait for this to be carried out.
Now lets not forget that Esther is a Jew who hasn't been forthcoming with her heritage.... and she's QUEEN.

So with the news of the decree Mordecai grieves and wails for his people at the gates of the palace (where he worked) and displayed his beliefs and heritage for everyone to see. Esther heard of it and sent a messenger to him to explain. the messenger went back and forth, from one to another Mordecai explaining the decree to Esther and asking her to approach king Xerxes. Esther refusing because it had been 30 days since he last summoned her and to go to the king without being summoned meant death unless the king spared her... Now Esther and Xerxes had been married for 5 years.... And he hadn't summoned her in 30 days..... the man had a harem. It's not said why it had been so long... But I think we can all guess. Esther said she couldn't go to the king...

Mordecai tells her "Do not imagine that you in the king's palace can escape any more than all the Jews. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place and you and your father's house will perish. And who knows whether you have not attained royalty for such a time as this?"

What a way to verbally shake someone awake?!

Think of all Esther had on her plate already. She's been married for 5 years and recently hasn't been called to the king in 30 days.... Xerxes claimed there was a special bond between them when they married.... Had things gone bad? Did he not want her any more? was he bored? Has he found someone new? Did he want to get rid of her?

To have her cousin tell her, on top of her personal problems to take herself and give the king the opportunity to take her out of the picture.... Because anyone who went to the king without being summoned can be killed.... She felt it was too much to ask.

Beth Moore pointed out that God often turns us to the next path on the heels of a crisis. it is that crisis that pivots us. A big flashing light should go off when personal crisis comes in a time of over all crisis... There's a revelation about to happen.

How often have you thought 'Don't involve me I already have enough problems' or 'not now I've got enough on my plate'? Anyone? Anyone? I think it all the time. I'd rather deal with my personal problems than focus on everyone else's.

The key point in the verse isn't that though... It's the question "Who knows?'That unanswered question of who knows if you've been put in the place you are at this very moment to fulfill your destiny! Esther's destiny was to use her position of power to save her people. But what a way to offer hope.

Who knows if I've been placed where I am to fulfill something that is bigger than myself. The strife and hardships I meet now are all in His plan for me. Why?

Because for every 'who knows'.... The answer is right there staring ourselves in the face...

Did you know that the most often repeated answer to that question in the bible is this

'And you shall know that I am the Lord your God'. It's a fact. One step at a time remember that God knows the plan. He has it all worked out. Don't trust in him to fix it to what you want... Trust in him to fix it to how He knows it will work. It's unconditional. In any hardship, know that He is the one leading the way. That statement above all others comforts me. Knowing that He is the master of all and he's got everything planned out. Whether it's good or bad, my life will have a purpose through Him and His plan for me. It's all in His hands.

I love it. To know that he'll take care of me no matter what I come across.... No matter what I do. It's pretty dang awesome.

Next Friday: It's Tough Being a Woman in the Tight Fist of Fear

Thankful Thursdays on Friday

Yeah I know. How did that happen?!

Well my Thursdays are pretty full with work, lab, work, class, work, bible study... I'm constantly on the go... And to top it all off this week I have a exam in Kineasiology... Bummer.

So this week I'm thankful for:

  • Family - They're awesome
  • Moving Itineraries - They save lives... and back muscles. Only 1 week to go!
  • Mini Corn Dogs - 'Nuff said
  • Flash Cards - They save grades if used properly...
  • Wind Wall Jackets - it's betting winnie the poo blustery out there.
  • PB & J - My snack of choice recently
  • Midol - Oh yes!
  • Nail Files - So my goal for the wedding is to have my own personal nails all grown out and fabulously natural. I'm normally really good at the whole growing out thing. They're pretty awesome right now but I'm paranoid about chips and all that jazz. Only 42 days!
  • Getting Engagement Pictures - That's right! we GOT THEM. They came in the mail on Tuesday along with a $100 deposit return. Cha-Ching!!!
  • Pearl's Place - The bridesmaid dresses came yesterday!!!

P.S. bridal shower pictures are on their way I promise....

October 14, 2009

Post 100!!!!!!!!!!

Hey bloggers!

It's my 100th post.

My 100th post request: New blogs to read and follow! Any suggestions?

October 13, 2009


You'll never guess who called AND emailed me today!

(Anyone who said the old photographer gets 5 points!)

That's right. after more than a month my old photographer has decided to get back in touch with me about the wedding. She said she was having health problems that her business wasn't prepared to deal with and she was sorry that things happened the way they did... She put our engagement pictures in the mail today and is giving us half our deposit back!!!

All I gotta say is Praise the Lord! I was stressing over the idea of being stuck with a photographer I hated. Now that's not the case. We're now officially working with CandidKama photography and I'm pleased as punch! She was the photographer for Big Sis's TTD session as well as the wedding photographer for my friend Mrs. G... They both have her work on their blogs so go check them out (and follow them, they're outstanding women... and I'm not biased or anything).


To celebrate the getting that stress off my plate please share your most stressful wedding planning moment. We all have had them, so don't skimp. Lets liberate ourselves from stressers!

Bridal Shower Weekend

I'll start with Saturday.

So I'm totally not one of those obsessive compulsive people when it comes to planning. But this past weekend I felt as if no one else would venture out to help Mom, Big Sis, FSIL, FMIL and FGMIL with the party set up.... and I was right. So there I was on Saturday, helping decorate for my own bridal shower. It wasn't that bad... But it was a little weird.

My future girl in-laws and the girls in my family haven't quite figured each other out yet. in some ways they are very similar... But in other ways they are really really different. Like the future in-laws take every comment and digest it, disect it, and save it for later use.... It's their way. plus it puts you on guard all the time. Which is uncomfortable.... But I'm use to it now... My girls are quick to get angry and quick to forget comments made... So my mom or sister will say something and forget after whatever is taken care of or addressed.... While my future in-laws will bring any comment up in conversation weeks after the incident... I'm like a mixture of both...
Anyway, so all us girls set up the room for the shower Saturday night after we made 1000000 cupcakes (which I loved doing).

Sunday I slept in and played hookie from church. I threw my fit about not having any fall appropriate clothes to wear that would label me 'Bride'. Then I hustled out of the house to get to the party room early... Yes that's right. I helped set up the last of the things for the shower the day of.... I'm not mad or anything I just thought it was funny. I love helping when I can.

Now my mentality the whole weekend was 'why am I making all these people come and bring me gifts. Why am I making them spend money on me like this.... It's all really expensive stuff... How weird that they're bringing presents so they can eat food, watch me open them... Then leave' so all while people were coming up to me and saying how cute the room was and how exciting that it was only 6 weeks until the wedding, I was thinking 'OMG this is creeping me out. I feel horrible. How many times have I really met you before this?' Typical I guess since all the newer brides were telling me how weird it was for them but really fun it is as a guest.

So we had our chili and finger food and the room filled up with women I knew and some I've only met 1-2 times. It was a lot of fun as things came to a close. The gifts were more than I imagined and really weird at the same time. (reason stated above) But as I opened and helped the girls play their shower present bingo I began to relax. I let my not-so-natural Blondie show through as I mis-read names and even appliance descriptions.

Things wound down and I loved being surrounded by girls for an after noon. It was pretty overwhelming to have so many others genuinely excited for the wedding... Not just the normal response of , 'Oh wow... Your getting married?!'

All in all, I'm very thankful for the shower itself. And now I have 30+ thank you cards to write... And I'm determined to get them all done before Jake's big move. Wish me luck!!!

October 12, 2009

Monday Funday!!!!

This weekend was so much fun!

Friday night I spent the evening with my family. We went to flower factory so I could get some tax-deductible Mary Kay supplies. Then we headed to Long John silvers.... What? When was the last time I was there? like 1992?
It wasn't what I remembered... But I survived.

The rest of the night I played catch up with my DVR watching Dancing with the Stars, So You Think You Can Dance, Glee & Cougar Town... I didn't quite make it to Grey's or Heroes... But I plan on fixing that soon.

Saturday I helped everyone set up for the shower. It was fun and once everything was done I was getting excited about it. Saturday night FMIL, SFIL Jake and I went to a new Mexican restaurant and vegged out on chips and salsa.

I'll post about Sunday once I get pictures.... I'm sure they'll be on facebook sometime.. Until then I'll hold myself back! I will say this... It was pretty damn awesome! I am still reeling and thankful for everything.

13 days until the big move!!!!

October 9, 2009

ITBAW in a Mean World

With bible study this week we looked at meanness.... Yeah, I know. It's something we all have to deal with. Something we all encounter on a day to day basis. For this the focus was on Ester 3:1-5.

Beth Moore always gets to me. In almost every session I know she's relating to me by using stories from her own life. Knowing a woman who leads thousands of women in a study like this and touching each and every one of them through a relationship of understanding... It's inspiring.

With the topic of meanness Beth Moore made a note that Meanness always has a history. Dude... It's sooo true. She spoke of the history of the rival between Mordecai, a Jew and Queen Ester's cousin, and Haman, a Jew hater and King Xerxes right hand man. This was all due to a deep family history of hatred. Haman hated Mordecai on principle... It was something about God directing Mordecai's ancestors to 'wipe out' Haman's ancestors due to their sinful ways. Now I don't know about what you make of that... But Haman's people must have been really sinful for God to have wanted them wiped out. Anyway, evidently King Saul, of the Israelites, disobeyed and let 1 person from that line live... which began the ancestral line of hatred.

Now I'm going to relate this in the same way that Beth Moore did... She stated that meanness perceives a threat. Think about that some... when we are threatened or our children, husbands, brothers, sisters, parents..... Our claws come out! We act without thinking... or we become vicious and strategical... It's in our nature to protect ourselves and our loved ones from any threat... and a lot of times it's funneled out in mean ways... when the threat is to ourselves we start comparing ourselves to each other... We try to find the opponent's weakness, we conceal our own... They then become our rival... Why? Why do we waste time and effort on them? Is it insecurity? Why do we feel as if we have to prove ourselves? Often we swap pain for anger just because it's easier and energizing... but soon anger turns into mean. But we're told to never stay angry... My favorite quote from the session....'you can get glad in the same clothes you got mad in' and it's so true... It's just like the whole never go to bed angry thing...

And we have to beware because meanness catches... And spreads... how many times have you had someone say something snarky to you... and you fire right back with out thinking... It happens to me all the time! And I mean ALL the time. I'll catch my self only after it's too late.

Hope comes in the popular saying... Hate your enemy with kindness... or something to that effect.

here is something that caught my attention in the evening's discussion last Thursday.

What is a mean girl?

  • someone who has to be the center of attention.
  • someone who digs at others, but don't own up to it when they get caught... They never take responsibility for their words or actions.
  • Someone who dresses provocatively around other girl's men! They only want male attention not necessarily that particular man's attention.
Don't try to talk anyone out of that last one... A woman knows the sexual power they hold.... And those who are unavailable but still flaunting their sexual appeal is a mean girl...

Who says we have to flaunt ourselves at all... we are entrenched in a society where sex drives everything. From hamburger sales to Hollywood. And girl who believe they are only as good as they are sexually desirable are giving in to social pressures...

I often find myself wanting to dress to impress.... But it's a competition with other girls for me. Which is very bad. I'm only now starting to understand that Jake doesn't want me to dress that way... He doesn't need me to look 100% all the time. He doesn't need me to be desired by anyone else, because I'm his. He told me that he sees me dressing provocatively as a threat. He feels more protective and aware of my actions and other men around me... And he doesn't like it. It makes him insecure. Him... Insecure in our relationship because I'm dressing like other girls my age... He then pointed out that other girls my age aren't a month away from getting married and starting a family. I'm doing something some of those girls are aiming for... I've already got the ultimate prize.

Next Friday: It's tough being a woman thrown a giant-sized weight.

October 8, 2009

Thankful Thursdays!!!

It's Thursday again?? Whew this week went by fast!

Things I'm thankful for:

  • Replacement Photographers - I can't wait to work with my new photographer! I'm sending in the contract and deposit tonight! Yay!

  • Sisters and future sisters - They like making things easier for me when it comes to wedding planning. I love it! I love them! They're amazing!

  • My lifespan motor development lab - I love going to the early child hood center every Thursdays morning. Some of the kids are sooo funny! It totally brightens my day!

  • Chicken Nuggets - they're the best fall back food ever. When in doubt.... order the chicken nuggets.

  • Greek Food - I LOVE gyros and hummus. No joke. I adore those... and pitas....MMMM. I want a gyro now please!

I must be hungry...

Bible study tonight... So I'll post this week's topic for the 'It's tough being a woman' series tomorrow. Hopefully you will like it. I'm very excited!

October 7, 2009

Birthdays and Excitement

Happy Birthday To the Love of My Life.

His birthday was yesterday and the poor thing had an evening class... Calculus...YUCK! (it's a good thing I chose the major I did because I could barely pass college algebra!) So we celebrated by having chocolate cake at his mom's with FSIL, Twin, TOB and FMIL. it was nice and low key. Due to being away for their 21st birthdays TOB and I are trying to put together a birthday bash for the boys... It's not working out quite the way we planned with her getting a nasty cold. But we're still trying

I'm getting him a sports watch a gift card to get his tattoo filled in! he's had it since San Antonio and didn't get it filled in because it would have been so expensive. Plus he was all by him self. Poor babylove. The watch probably would have been a better idea.... But I want his tattoo filled in for the honeymoon and I'm afraid he will just let it go. It's hard to read with just the outline... plus he always says he doesn't know when he's gonna get the money to do it.... Problem fixed and my mental breakdown about unfinished projects averted!
In other news:

My ring is back!... It's beautiful and best of all silent! No more little tinkling sounds when I run my fingers through my hair! Added perk: They dipped it for free and didn't put it on my receipt! That means I still get my yearly free dipping right before the wedding!!!! Yay!
We're meeting with our possible replacement photographer tonight! I'm so excited!I never heard back from our original. I called her with the deadline to call me back by the end of the weekend...Then on Monday I emailed her to let her know that if I didn't hear from her before Wednesday evening, that I was going to go with a different photographer. Nothing yet.

Some side story I just found out from another one of the brides who had problems with her... She was in the same situation and was blocked from the viewing website and got her DOC involved. This move made the photographer's assistant to contact her to state that she was having health related issues. (OK understandable, but it takes 1 min. to shoot out an email letting someone know about that.) The bride kept her contract and was contacted the day before her wedding with the photographer asking for the daily schedule and locations, then was there the whole day for the actual wedding... If I was that bride I would have had a mental breakdown! She's one tough cookie! Anyway evidently at the wedding the photographer told the bride as a side note that she had been going through a separation (the bride noted to me that it was evident because of all the weight the photographer had lost).... I fell bad about the situation... But if something like that is going on and it's preventing you from going on with your work or replying to client's emails and phone calls then something needs to be done. It's really not that professional to just leave someone hanging. my caterer was having surgery the week before out tasting... She let me know that the day before her surgery so we could be prepared if she had to cancel.... It's not that hard to send an email, especially when it's you client's preferred method of communication due to classes and work.

OK I'm done being bitter now.
Jake and I are getting our keys on Oct. 20th!!! Our actual move in date isn't until the 24th, but this means Jake and I can vacuum, sanitize and spot clean every little thing before we move our stuff in... Which leaves cleaning after things are put in, and I can deal with that!
Yay for this weekend!!!! I can't believe the shower is here already!!!! It's gonna be thanksgiving before I know it!!! I'm so excited for this fresh start. I can't wait! I'm moving everything except my bed and closet. And even then the bed I'm in now is staying at my parent's house. Wahoo! I can't wait until we'll be able to have some real us time. To learn each other's daily quirks and annoyances (boy do I know those are coming) to divide chores and duties... It's going to be hard adjusting but I'm excited that we're finally moving forward.
The last news for the day:
My bridal shower is this weekend! Yes loves, it's true. The day count is slowly but steadily getting smaller. We're at 51 days today. And this weekend i get to spend a couple of hours with some of my life's (and Jake's) most influential women. It's crazy to hear that there are already 50+ RSVP's for the event! What 50+ people that want to come and celebrate with me?! I didn't even know that many women existed for me... You know what I mean? The numbers are amazing and very heart warming.... I'm just worried about how they'll all fit in the space. i wasn't expecting so many 'yes' replies and so our space only fits 35 people comfortably. I guess we'll see. Hopefully the weather is nice so we can move some people out onto the club house porch.
But I can't wait for the fall harvest yumminess of chili, apples and Carmel dip, pies, pumpkin cupcakes, cookies, veggies, hot apple cider and hot chocolate! It really makes it fall! I'm so thankful to my sister and FSIL for putting everything together and letting me be a little sister to them.... They can't help their natural drive to coordinate things and let me relax...I've been almost chastised many times by both of them... Gotta love big sisters!

October 6, 2009

Oh the Madness

I called the potential back up photographer and confirmed that she is available for the date. We're meeting with her Wednesday night.

I emailed my current photographer, again, after calling her and leaving a message asking for her to call me before the weekend was over just to let me know everything was OK.... Needless to say, I wasn't very nice about the lack of communication. I gave her the deadline of Wednesday evening to contact m before I found another photographer..... Anyone know the process of something like this. Jake is worried about possible law suits concerning our contract with current photographer.... I just wish none of this happened.... I'm so worried that if she calls and we end up keeping the contract that I'll be bitter and salty about the whole experience. Any words of advice?

My engagement ring is currently at the jewelers. The guy said I could have it tonight after work. I feel so weird not having it. I feel like I have to be extra aloof in my classes because the e-ring isn't there as a shield. lol. Pretty lame hua? It's just weird. So hopefully I'll get it back tonight and everything will be perfect!

Big Sis, mom and I worked on our ribbon pomanders for the flower girls. We're making one extra in case my Junior bridesmaid wants to carry one too.... They're so stinking adorable.

They're not done yet... But all of them are half way done... We ran out of pins.
Ribbon at 5/8th inch. (include a larger ribbon for the strap)
Styrofoam ball
sewing pins (I just used the long silver ones without a plastic colored head.)

Here are the directions:
  • Buy ribbon. (I bought about 3-4 rolls of each pattern/fabric.)
  • Cut ribbon into 4 and 5 inch sections.
  • Attach strap ribbon by overlapping ends and pinning, then pin all the way around, leaving a 1/2 inch gap.... let the strap be to preference. (Mine were all different length Handel loops because they're for a 4 year old, a 6 year old and a 14 year old.)
  • Roll piece of ribbon so each end is overlapping and place pin through both ends.
  • Push pin into Styrofoam ball.
  • Repeat
    I'm using both royal blue and navy and I love it!!!

October 5, 2009

Good Morning Monday

Well this weekend was interesting.

Saturday was a Mary Kay training day. FSIL and her two Ohio recruits (me and another of her friends) woke up at 5, dressed to impress in skirted business attire, and drove 2 1/2 hours to Aurora, OH for a holiday training seminar. It was interesting due to the fact that 3 miles away we were pulled over by a cop going 19 miles over the limit..... AND we only got a warning. I think our skirts did the trick. There must be something about black knee length skirts and cute girls under the age of 45. I mean really. so warning in hand FSIL got us to the hotel with minuets to spare. We took our seats and listened to some of the most successful women in the company talk about their personal business struggles and how they overcame them to move on to earning their 2-16th pink caddy!!! WHAT? One of the girls had only been in the company for 16 months and already had her first company car.... It's no caddy.... but it's still free! It really set fire under my bum and put a spring in my step. I mean I think I could do just fine and take my time... But I want my own personal success story. I'm so pumped! if you want to look through the catalog online go to my website. There are a TON of awesome gift sets that are perfect for Christmas!

So after we got back to C-Bus we changed and got ready for the buckeye game. Jake and FSIL's husband were out golfing (I think that's going to be a common occurrence). So I went home and had a b-day dinner with my family for my nephew. (I cant believe he's 4!) then went back to Jake's to fall asleep during the game. Jake drove sleeping me home and tucked me in.

Sunday was bless your pet day! Bahahaha. It's hilarious, every year there is one day where we get to bring all our pets to church. yep that's right. And I guess my family always tries to even out the dog population by bringing our 5 cats (from only 2 houses) to be blessed. It was Jake's first year participating due to Army stuff last year, But I think he started to like it toward the end. My mom's field Springer Spaniel, Tori, was really the best behaved ever! I really didn't expect that much from her but I'll just say that my brother's cat Tampson, who is still at my parents house, was worse than Tori was.... This 25 LB gray monstrosity was talking up a storm and letting everyone know that he hated being carried around some strange place by little ol' me who had to show off my bulging triceps muscles by caring him up to the front to be blessed like all the other pets there. It was funny.

After that we signed our lease!!!!! YAY! We are now townhouse renters!!!

Then last night Jake's family all went to Japanese Steak House. I have never been to one and it was AMAZING! I actually liked the shrimp, my fillet Mignon was to die for and someone else picked up the tab! Score!
Jake and I ended the night by choosing our scripture readings for the ceremony. one more thing.... Done.

But last night as I was combing my fingers through my hair I heard a little tinkling sound coming from my left hand... Yeah, I think one of my diamonds are loose.... So I'm 'not' engaged today and hopefully Jake can take my ring in to the jewelers while I'm at work/school. Scary! I'm just glad I caught it before one of the diamonds fell out.

That's it for now loves....

(Oh, photographer update.... No call from contracted photographer. I sent out an email to a possible back-up and she asked me to call her today. So hopefully I'll find out how to move forward with this.)

October 2, 2009

Oh Loves... What am I Supposed to DO?!

I've kept the stress details out of my blog for the most part... Ladies and Gents.... It's about to explode!

To start off I had my second huge melt down this week. Jake and I went to meet with his buddy who is going to be doing our wedding video and picture slide show. I was told to bring pictures and videos. I had the pictures... Check. i didn't know so much about the video part. So i riffled through a box of VHS tapes and found a few that were blank and a few old musicals I was in. I took them with us and told D-rock (the videographer/buddy) that I didn't really know what was on the tapes but I was willing to go through them while the boys had a man night and watched UFC. I went through the tapes, fast forwarding and rewinding only to find that I have NO baby videos... None. I don't have any video documentary of my life until my first musical 'Brigadoon' when I was in the chorus in 6th grade.... and even then it's the whole show, not any of just me.... Jake... He has TONS. so I had to tell the guys that I didn't have any videos and that if I didn't have any videos then Jake couldn't have any videos in our slide show. D-Rock continues to tell me that 'there has to be a video hidden somewhere' and to 'not worry about it because something will show up'. Now I appreciate it but I never remember a video recorder around during my childhood. So I asked and confirmed that there were no baby videos due to how expensive it all was. Which is fine.... But why did I feel so crappy and defensive about it?

Needless to say I cracked. The lac of video bled into the fact that Jake, at that point, STILL hadn't asked his last groomsman to be in the wedding... Oh yes. 58 days out and we had bought a personalized groomsman gift but hadn't asked the actual person to be in the wedding because Jake couldn't do it in person. OMG LET ME HIT YOU REALLY HARD, FIANCE OF MINE! This then bled into the fact that we have a lot of things left to pay off.... Which bled into the total creepiness I felt knowing my dress was in pieces due to alterations..... I just don't like the idea that it's not a whole dress right now... Which led into the nothing is going to look right because I have to do it all by myself part....

Then I got a text message from FSIL telling me that some of the guests had been calling asking if there was a reception after the wedding.... WHAT?!!! Are they dumb or something? Evidently they didn't know because there wasn't a mention of it on my invitation..... let me ask you this.... How... in... the... world.... did the 8 people checking my invitation wording, 6 who were already married or had already purchased their invites, miss the fact that our invite didn't say 'Reception to follow'? How did we forget that?

After that I broke down. I cried and cried. I thought everything was ruined because we changed the date and had to throw things together in 5 months less. I thought Jake didn't care about any of the details that I had to obsess over because otherwise it wouldn't get done. I was a mess for 4 hours straight.

In the end I found out that my sister was staying home the next day and I gave her the mission of finding a card that would compliment our invites so I could print up and mail out a card that had reception and hotel information on it. She saved the day and found something. I'm going to pass them out at the shower.

I'm less stressed now. Jake asked the last guy and we now have a full bridal party. My sister's MOH dress came in (it was ordered separately so it came separately). I have cards to fix the reception info problem.

But to top it all off..... I haven't heard a word from my photographer since she told me the date change was a go. And I've emailed her many times since then asking questions I never got answers to. I went to go look at my e-pics today only to find out that I cant get into my picture profile anymore..... what is that supposed to mean? So I called my photographer and asked her to ' please please please call me back.' because I hoped that there wasn't anything serious that had happened and I was worried about things. If I don't get a response by Sunday I'm going to start looking for a new photographer.

I need to keep my sanity.

p.s. What do you think of my 'It's hard being a woman' blogs so far? Sorry I have to fish for compliments.... It's just a lot of work and emotions that get rolled into typing up my views on the subjects... and I'm hoping that some people actually enjoy it.

ITBAW in a World Where Beauty is a Treatment

It's Tough being a Woman in a World Where Beauty is a Treatment.

That's the topic of my bible study for this past week and man did it resonate?!

So the book of Ester in the bible is about this orphan girl who was raised by her older single male cousin.... That alone could start a discussion, I know. So This orphaned girl who is only about 15 gets chosen to go through a year long beauty treatment in order to be presented to the king of Persia, Xerxes (yeah, no doubt that'll be the name of my next pet).... A year long beauty treatment... Now listen here. She was chosen to be in this thing because she was aesthetically pleasing. Why in the world did she have to go through a whole year of treatment to look even better?... I mean honestly. Now this girl was thrown in with thousands of other pretty girls. Imagine the competition and insecurity knowing the king of Persia was looking for a Queen in the throng of girls selected. Imagine the tactics and game plans formed and schemed in order to gain favor, because us girls..... We have some mad skills when it come to manipulation. Think of all the times you have asked someone to do something where you were hoping to control the outcome? Times where you've told someone something hoping their actions would prove a point.... I know you know what I'm talking about!

Now Beth Moore often says how ironic it is that the world back then was essentially the same as it is now. (this is my kind of history lesson so beware) The Persian Empire was a pagan culture where heroes were celebrated with parties and orgies. Victory in war meant holidays that lasted weeks! (now i wouldn't mind it if we got holidays where we didn't have to pay taxes.) But the obsession with beauty in Persia then is equivalent with our obsession with sexuality. Think of it. In this time period and earlier, wars were started over beautiful women. The chance for a man to 'own' that woman was a point of pride. But the underlying obsession with appearance is the same. I mean really think about it. How often are we bombarded with commercials showing us the latest and greatest in skin care, wrinkle solutions, clothing, hair treatments. I mean the whole entertainment industry is based more on looks than talent! Think of the airbrushing that goes on in magazines and photo shoots!

This will hit close to home with brides and soon-to-be weds.... Think of the pressure you felt to be 'perfect' on your wedding day.... Not a hair out of line. The perfect makeup. The perfect dress (OK,OK the dress not so much because it makes you feel beautiful no matter if you were wearing makeup or not when you tried it on for the first time...)

This is something Beth Moore said that really stuck with me.

'Beauty isn't something that is... It is something that you do'.

let that sit for a little....

When it comes to beauty there are 4 kinds of women Beth Moore pointed out:
1. A woman who wants everyone to think she's beautiful.
2. A woman who wants all meant o think she's beautiful.
3. A woman who doesn't want anyone to think she's beautiful
4. A woman who hopes a few somebodys think she's beautiful.

Do you know these women? I know I do.

what she says about each of these types of women really hit home with me. I'll summarize and put it in my own words.
  • For #1 she said that this type of woman is vain and the attention from everyone feeds her vanity. This woman cant have attention on anyone else. The spotlight cant be on anyone else. And that's selfish. This is the woman that will make you feel bad about yourself no matter how adorable your outfit is.
  • For #2 she said that this type of woman is dangerous. I totally agree! This woman who may or may not be in a happy, loving relationship still needs men to think that she's gorgeous. She may hear it from her significant other every day... but she craves the sly glances from men when she's out and about. She wants to be noticed and lusted after. Whether its intentional or subconscious. That kind of woman is a tease and dangerous with a capital D.
  • For #3 she said that this type of woman is scared. scared of life, attention, living and finding happiness. Beauty doesn't necessarily mean physical beauty.... But taking a pride in yourself. The woman who hides her self in a mask of any sort is fearful of the outcome of their true selves.
  • Finally #4 she said is the type of woman that should be respected. She's vain, yes. But not enough that it interferes with her own life as well as others. It's a natural level of vanity to want someone to think your pretty. You want to be admired by your husbands and your mothers. You want to be looked up to be your little sisters. It's not everyone that you care about... Just your core people. You want to be looked at kindly. You want to be cherished by those who are closest to you....
Now with all this I'm NOT telling you makeup and beauty treatments are wrong.... I'm a freaking Mary Kay consultant and I'm obsessed with what I sell to women every day.... I love me some Mascara, masks and massages and that's that! what I'm saying is take pride in yourself. dress cute for yourself. Do it because you respect your self. Don't do it out of competition with another woman's looks. don't do it because you want to be wanted. Be conscious of the way you dress and who you do it for.
And remember. Your significant other loves you best when you are yourself....
For Jake that means on lazy days when I'm showered and dressed but busy lounging in yoga pants and tanks to put on makeup or style my hair.... He tells me so all the time. :)

October 1, 2009

Thankful Thursdays

Happy Thursday!

Today I'm thankful for:

  • Sisters/MOH!!! - She's running around doing wedding related stuff for me on her sick day off. Big Sis, your the BEST!!!

  • The Fiance - He's so understanding and awesome!

  • Adorable Kids - I'm in a class where we teach a preschool gym class for motor development and all the kids are totally adorable when they don't even know you but they grab your hand and hold on for dear life.

  • Burning Thighs - It lets you know your working hard.... especially when it happens 2 days after! yay for working out and feeling good!

  • Hand Sanitizer - This refers back to the child care center thing.... kids are a little gross.

  • COMMENTS!!! - I love them. no matter is they just say 'good job', or 'I know what you mean'. they always make me feel good!