So when I was on my way to my friends bridal shower, I received an interesting phone call that went like this.
me-'Hey, baby love.'
him- 'Hey.... So I was talking to my mom and I mentioned the idea of a destination wedding and she's all for it. She was talking England or Scotland. But she's OK with it'
me- '...........What? OK. That's pretty cool of her. Ugggg I totally want to go to Europe. Oh well.' *laugh* 'I love you'
him-'So lets do it.'
me- 'What?' *laugh* 'OK, lets run away'
him- 'Yeah, but we cold do some research and see if we could do it'
me-'What? For real? Do you know how much money in deposits we would never see again. No baby, we cant.'
This is where his attitude came in.... Imagine passively angry and depressed sounding.... That's him to a tee.
him-'I thought you'd be proud of me.'....... *Oh, a blow right to the pompous*
me-'Baby....... I am. It's very cool that your mom was open to the idea. But I want all of my family there and they just cant afford to take a trip like that. Plus we'd be losing almost $2000 in deposits that would count against us.... That's a lot.'
him-'I just thought you'd like to have an option'
me-'If this had come up 6 months ago... Yes. But as of right now we just cant.'
him- *defeated* 'OK, well I just thought it was something you'd like'
me- 'Baby.... When we talked about eloping and running away before, I thought it was just normal lovey talk.... Not that you were serious.'
him- 'Well, maybe I was... I thought you were.' *ug he kills me*
me-'Oh love..... I just think our losses are bigger than our gain in this. I'm sorry. But good job talking to your mom. I wish you would have talked to me first and we could have talked to her together.... Like 6 months ago..'
Then I proceeded to feel like he was angry.... He claims he wasn't/isn't
The next thing I knew my sister started asking me about our budget. Now with my thinking I'm not including anything that people are paying for in our budget. I didn't add my dress because I paid for it myself. I didn't add the church because my Gram left me money specifically for that when she died.... I haven't been counting the bar because future in-laws were paying $3000 towards it..... I didn't know there were rules when it comes to wedding budgeting. I've never done it before..... My bad.
So we've been WAY off.... Like now our budget has to get changed from $10000.00 to $14000.00........ I went over all the prices with Jake so he could see the things we really got a deal on..... But I still felt that after the whole running away
And that's where I stand. I'm doing a good job of getting things for the cheapest with the best quality. I'm cutting corners and doing pretty damn good. I could have ignored my gut and splurged on certain things that I knew I wanted. I could have calmed the nerves I have about certain vendors by going with someone with someone more expensive..... But I didn't. I'm trying really hard and I should get some credit...
So now that I'm getting wound up. Poo on that Jake. I'm doing the best I can.