April 15, 2014

40 Weeks

40
It’s officially the end of a stage in my life.

I’m tired.
Really tired.
This week was one that I spent staying up longer and longer every time I got up during the night… waiting to see if the Braxton hicks contraction that I had would turn into active labor.
It never did.

I’m ready.
Well, it’s more like I’m ready to be done with pregnancy.

I can’t wait to be able to bend at the waist again.
Put on normal shoes, whether they are the ones that I already have, or a new size.

More than that, I can’t wait to hold my little boy.
Smell him.
See what he looks like.

The one decision I am very glad that we made is choosing to not do the 4D ultrasound.
Originally we didn’t do it because we didn’t want to leave any family member who wanted to go out of the appointment. And with 22 family members in town (not including ourselves) and 2 that live about 2 hours away, I would have been claustrophobic and stressed.
It was a selfish decision, I admit.
But I think that it has really helped Jake and I get more excited about meeting our little man.
I think Jake needs all the excitement for a newborn we can muster, with school and his MCAT taking over his free time.
He needed the distraction and mystery.
We can speculate whose genes will win the battle and get the surprise of seeing his features for the first time in person.
It gives us something fun to talk about, rather than just planning and worrying about the future.

So that’s it.
Tomorrow is THE day.
We go into the hospital at 8pm.
Because I tested positive for group B, I’ll be given a dose of antibiotics right away and scheduled for a second dose later during the night.
I’ll have Pitocin, and hopefully things will really go from there as naturally as possible.
If necessary I’ll have the balloon cath.
Not looking forward to that and really praying that I won’t have to.
I’m hoping to stay as mobile as possible.
Walking, using the birthing ball, showering if I want….
Then depending on how tired I am and how well I direct my pain, we will face the meds decision.
My ideal would be to not need it, but I have to be realistic and open minded.

We will see.
That’s all I can say.
And I’m OK with that.

The next time you hear from me, I’ll be a mother.
A family of three with a  cat and dog.

Crazy!

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April 3, 2014

39 Weeks: Staring at the Finish Line

39 Weeks

This boy is going to hold on until the last minute, I just know it.

I can’t believe that it’s been 10 months of me carrying this precious boy inside of me.
I’m over it… Don’t get me wrong.
But I know that I’ll miss him there.

I’m still making progress.
60% effaced and a very loose 2cm dialated.
I guess that is pretty good.
My OB gave me a 50/50 chance of going into labor on my own.

This week marks when I got my stretch marks.
It’s been a pretty traumatic discovery.
Something telling me that my life, and body, really will never be the same.
Yet one more thing to tell me that.
I don’t really mind, I am not too sure that 2 pieces are really what I want to be in anyway.
They’re fairly small, branching up from my belly button, going a little diagonal below it.
I have been pushing them together to keep track of their position and progress.
Jake doesn’t like it.
Nothing better than freaking out your husband by smashing your belly skin.
I may or may not have made it talk.

My mobility is at 20%
I’m walking like a duck.
My pelvic bone hurts almost all the time.
My ligaments are all loose, so my knees hurt.

I’m still taking the stairs when I have the chance.
I’m doing a 10 minute walk to and from my car on work days.
Then walking the dog, when I can.
That’s about it, exercise wise.

I’ve been on half days this week and couldn’t be more thankful for it.
We mainly chose to do it because my edema has been so consistent.
And my irritability in the afternoon is pretty intense.
Only having to be at work for little over 4 hours is pretty amazing.

We have everything set up that needs to be set up.

My dad is making our crib and it is into the staining stage of things I can’t wait until it’s done!
MIL finished Jaxon’s crib quilt and I ADORE it.
Our bags are packed.
Our car seat is installed.


We’re ready for him to be here already!